Kiefer’s POV
“He’s my ex-boyfriend.”
I can feel my heart shattering into pieces, into smaller pieces.
“He’s your ex? Why didn’t you tell me?” I asked.
Medyo napalakas ata yung boses ko. In that way, matatalo ko yung feeling na pagiyak ko. Hindi ko alam kung bakit nasasaktan pa din ako kahit past na niya yun. Natatakot kasi ako sa mga expressions niya kanina. Alam ko may nararamdaman pa siya.
“I tried. Humahanap lang ako ng tiyempo.” She answered
“So that’s the reason why you’re crying kanina?”
She didn’t answer
“Mahal mo pa ba siya?” I asked in a soft voice
But she’s not answering
“Alex, mahal mo pa ba siya? Sagutin mo ko.”
“No. Hindi ko alam.”
“No? Tapos hindi mo alam? Anung klaseng sagot yan? Siguro mahal mo pa siya. Niloloko mo lang yang sarili mo eh. Kasi kung hindi mo na siya gusto, hindi ka na iiyak and ikekwento mo yung past mo sakin, especially his part!!!”
I know I am getting too hard on her. Nasisigawan ko na siya ng hindi ko alam.
“I’m sorry. I don’t know how to start.” She said
“Sorry? Sorry? Nagmukha akong tanga kanina dun. Kaharap ko na pala yung ex-boyfriend ng mahal ko. Kayakap pa nga to be exact eh. Tapos sorry? Sorry?”
Hindi ko alam kung bakit galit na galit ako. Gusto kong suntukin sarili ko, bakit ko ba kasi nakakayang sigawan yung babaeng mahal ko.
“Wala naman yung kanina eh. It’s not what you think.”
“What the hell was that, Alex? San galing yun? Ano gusto mong isipin ko, knowing he was your ex, na friendly hug lang yung kanina? Wala lang yun? trip trip lang yun? I wanna know!!!”
“You wanna know? You really want to know, Kiefer?” she said. Medyo high pitched na rin yung boses niya and her face is turning red.
“Thomas is my ex-boyfriend. We were together for a year. He was the reason why I was crying when you saw me the first time. I loved him once. I was on the part of moving on when you came. And eventually, you healed all the scars he left.”
Ramdam kong galit na galit siya. I want to stop her from crying. Hindi ko kaya atang ganito siya
“…Bakit? Ikaw? Kinwento mo ba sakin yung tungkol kay Trish? Ibig sabihin gusto mo pa din siya kaya hindi mo inoopen up sakin? Ganun ba Kiefer? Ha?!” Dagdag niya
How did she know? Pano niya nalaman yung samin ni Trish?
“Matagal na kaming hindi nagkikita ni Trish. I can assure you na hindi ko na siya gusto. You have to trust me on that.”
“But with Thomas? Why can’t you trust me?” she asked.
“I trust you. It’s your feelings that I don’t. Especially nalaman ko na you’re on the part of moving on palang when I came. Natatakot ako kasi baka one day bumalik lahat ng nararamdaman mo sa kanya. I don’t want to lose you, Alex.”
Then there was silence. Hindi ko na rin naman kayang magsalita pa. Baka kasi kung saan pa mapunta ‘to. Ayokong mawala si Alex. Hindi ko kaya. Hindi ko kakayanin.
BINABASA MO ANG
Chasing the Unplanned Love
Fanfiction"Love is not always about compromise, sometimes it's a complete surprise." A story about falling in love, getting hurt and falling in love all over again.
