Chasing the Unplanned Love

Chapter 29- From lovers to bestfriends

Author's note:

Merry Christmas everyone! :) Spread the love.

xx,

den_anne

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Nakatingin lang ako sa labas habang kumakain kami. Umaasa pa rin ako na sana makita ko si Kiefer, sana dumaan yung kotse niya. Sana nandito siya. Pero wala….

…walang Kiefer Ravena.

 Nung natapos na kaming kumaing dalawa, niyaya na niya ako to talk in private. Hindi ko alam mararamdaman ko. Para bang malalaglag yung puso ko anytime.

I hopped in his car, at gabi na rin kaya walang traffic. Hindi ko alam kung saang lupalop na kami nakarating and then he stopped the car. Sobrang tahimik ng place medyo creepy pero okay lang. Ang tahimik lalo kasi walang nagsasalita sa amin, so I chose to break the silence.

“Thomas, hindi ko alam kung ano mangyayari kung malaman to ni Kath. I don’t want to ruin your relationship. You and Kath looks good together, really. I’m so sorry kung nakita mo pa akong umiyak ulit. But believe me, magiging okay rin ako. But not now.”

Pinipigilan kong hindi umiyak, believe me. No Alex, not now. Please.

“Uhm….I’m so sorry for what happened in the past. Alam ko may kasalanan din ako. I don’t want to put all the blame on you, it’s unfair. You’ve done your part, I did not. That’s why kasalanan ko kung bakit umiiyak ako, I’m not blaming you for loving Kath, I’m blaming myself. Ang love kasi parang basketball eh, pag hindi mo dinepensahan ang bola, maagaw. And I chose not to defend you.”

At unti-unti ng bumabagsak luha ko. Oh nose.

“Naka ilang months kayo ni Von?” he asked

Huh? How the hell napasok si Von sa usapan namin? 

“Von? Hindi naging kami ni Von. We’re just friends.” Sabi ko

“I saw you together sa Trinoma nun, and he gave you the Tazmanian stuff toy you loved.” Pero mukhang na shock siya.

“Ah yun ba? He comfort me lang nun. Then he gave that to me as a Christmas gift. Inakala mo bang naging kami? I asked

Yumuko siya tapos ang lalim ng kinukuha niyang hangin. Pag tingin niya sakin, nangingilid na yung luha niya.

“Akala ko kasi naging kayo. That’s why I was left with no option, and that was to accept that I lose you.”

“Maraming namamatay sa maling akala.” Sabi ko

“Alam ko. At namatay yung relasyon natin dahil dun. I’m so sorry. Love is never one way. Kailangan may give and take. I have to admit, nawalan ako ng time sayo, and you chose not to give your trust anymore. Alex, alam mong minahal kita. At mahal na mahal kita. Sinubukan kong mabuhay ng wala ka, pero hindi ko kaya. Si Kath, siya yung nandyan nung wala ka. I’m so sorry Alex. I’m really sorry. Parang ang selfish ko kasi nung tayo pa. palagi nalang ako, I never bothered to listen to your rants.” He said

Then he started crying. What the hell. Ayoko ng nakikita kang ganito Thomas.

“Last seconds, the clock was dying, nasa akin ang bola, but I refused to take that shot. That’s how I describe what I did to our relationship Alex. Pinili kong hindi I shoot yung bola. Hindi ko sinubukang mabalik ka sa akin, natatakot kasi ako. Natatakot akong masaktan ulit Alex.”