Legion

Letters

Love letters were never our thing, and as I read this, The thought of loving you crosses my mind, as I sit in my now empty room that once held you close, only for a second do I fight the urge of not wanting you here, because I can already feel your presence gaining on me, and I never want it to stop.

Everyone would tell me loving you was a mistake, a fools choose, but I knew they were wrong, and now they know it too. Loving you I don’t think was ever something I could control, being near you always just felt like breathing but now, now suddenly I’m drowning. 

I’m not sure I can go back to the way things were, the way I was, you left such a mark on me, I’m not sure the possibility of moving on is even an option. And right now that’s all I want you to know, I want you to know, I will never stop thinking of you, talking about you and dreaming of you, your face is printed in my mind till death do us part and beyond. 

Love letters were never our thing, but I think we can make an exception, when we meet I was in an unforgiving stage of my life and you helped me get through it all, I know you can move on from this because you helped me just the same. I want you to know that even though I‘m gone, I’m still with you in a different sense, in my sisters humour, my brothers eyes and my dad’s smile, so don’t be a stranger amongst my family, I know your presence will give them joy, as it did for me every day. I love you forever and ever, till death do us part and beyond. 

For maybe the 100th time I’ve read this letter does my heart actually catch up with my head, but for now all I want to do is hold this letter and long for the presence of you too hold me once more and slowly cry myself into extinction