Is Love Enough (SS)

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"I also remember the sequence of events that lead to me hiding in your cupboard away from your presence" Kushi added wiping off that smirk from Arnav's face

"What are you talking about??" Arnav frowned

He remember how happy he was to see her that day!!

He had been torturing himself ,not able to admit it to himself that he do not want Kushi to go back to Lucknow.

"Ofcourse you do not remember. After all it wasn't you ,it was me who almost lost her life" Kushi said and Arnav stiffened

"You had sent me to that collapsing building because you didn't want to see my face. That's what you said. You hate the sight of me" Kushi reminded him and Arnav closed his eyes remembering all those

"Kushi...I" she didn't let him talk. She was in a flow

"And I almost lost my life. Its the prayers of my family that saved me" Kushi said

"It was me who saved you damn it" Arnav said angrily

Didn't he ready tell her that he didn't send her there intentionally. That he had no idea that the building was on the verge of collapse

"Yeah. Maybe you only wanted to scare me to death. I must say ,you succeeded in it. I really wanted to leave everything and go from this city. But then your sister came and blackmailed me into training your gitlfriend. After all she is also an ASR" Kushi said

"Damn it Kushi. I told you already ,I didn't do it intentionally. I had no idea that the guest house was in that condition" Arnav bit out pulling her closer twisting her arms behind her back in his usual style

"Leave me. Ye kya batameezi hei??" Kushi asked trying to wriggle out of his hold

Arnav placed his other hand behind her head and pulled her more closer ,with his lips inches away from hers

"Batameezi meine abhi shuru hi nahi kiya Kushi Kumari Gupta Singh Raizada" Arnav said his gaze travelling from her eyes to her lips and then back to her eyes

A mirthless laugh escaped Kushi's lips hearing that

"What an irony.You haven't even started misbehaving ,you say. Yet you have been doing that ever since our first meet. Pehle mulakhat se batameezi aur zabardasti karte araha hei aap humaare saath" Kushi said and Arnav's grip loosened on her remembering the way he have misbehaved with her all the time

Right from day One in Sheesh Mahal where he cornered her in an empty dark room ,mandhandling her and ripping the dori of her dress to right upto this moment.

Kushi looked at her wrist where his the marks of his fingers where imprinted

She rubbed it slightly to ease the dull ache.

Arnav saw it and gulped

"Kushi...you are hurt" he said and was about to touch her but she flinched away from his touch

"I'm used to this by now" she said and walked away leaving him guilty and helpless

Why??

Why do I always end up hurting her??

Then like a movie ,all the events that happened in their life flashed before his eyes

Or better yet all events where he hurted her flashed before his eyes

Her falling into his arms at the fashion show

Locking her in the room and ripping her dori

Shouting at her at the dargah

Their little accident at Delhi

Meeting her at the office

Letting her fall down from his cabin

Making her stand in the rain

The red saree photoshoot...

Sending her to the damned guest house

Wretched Diwali night where he broke her heart

Blackmailing her into a marriage

Accusing her of an illegitimate affair

And after everything they went through ,he had went ahead and called her the biggest mistake of his life

When she is the most beautiful thing that has happened to him in his life....

No!! Kushi Kumari Gupta is his. He will not let her go.

Not under any circumstances.

If she leaves him...he would be lost.

His life would be meaningless.

Empty!!

***

Night

Kushi was sitting in the poolside looking up at the sky

There were three brightly twinkiling stars which she believes to be her parents and Arnav's mom

'Why does it hurt so much???

Love should only make someone stronger. Why did it make me weak??

What was my fault in all this??

All I ever thought about was making others happy?? Then why does everyone finds peace in making me sad??

Don't I deserve a little happiness??

Don't I deserve to be respected??

Don't I deserved to be loved unconditionally??

Why am I always second best for everyone??

You should have taken me along with you Amma. I wish I could lie down on your lap and forget everything for atleast a while.

Maybe then ,no one would have considered me a silly orphan they could use as a punch bag.'

Her eyes were filled to the brim staring at the stars ,but she was determined to not let the tears fall.

No!! She wouldn't cry anymore.

She wouldn't cry for those people who are not worth her tears.

I'm sorry Amma ,I'm sorry Babuji. Your Kushi fell weak for a while. Your Kushi let other people dictate her life. Your Kushi let ASR play with her life. Not anymore. Your Kushi is strong. She wouldn't let anyone take adavantage of her anymore

No!! She wouldn't turn into another ASR. She wouldn't let him do that to her.

She will be the same chirpy ,bubbly and empathetic Kushi.

But stronger!!

Stronger for the parents she lost. Stronger for her parents who is alive. Stronger for her jiji.

Above all ,she will be stronger for herself!

Arnav stared at Kushi staring at the stars and his heart ached

She is sharing her pain and worries with her parents ,when he should have been able to be that listening ears.

'But I promise Kushi....I will take away all the hurt and win you back' Arnav promised to himself

Devi maiyya smirked. Not so easy pretty boy. You have taken her for granted. And you need to learn your lesson before you get her back.

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