When Summer Ends (Four Season Series #1)

WSE-Kabanata 4

Kabanata 4

Trust

"I'm sorry." Paghingi ko ng tawad muli.

He smiled to assure me but it didn't reach his eyes.

"I'm very sorry. Late na kasi ako kanina at kailangan kong magmadali para sa oral examination namin. Malapit lang naman ang building kung kaya't okay lang sa akin... kung di mo ako ihatid." Pahina nang pahina ang boses kong saad. "I'm really sorry."

Kinagat ko ang labi para pigilan ang paghikbi. Yumuko ako upang hindi niya makita ang paglandas ng mga luha ko. Mas lumapit siya sa akin at hinawakan ang mukha ko at pinalis ang mga luhang lumandas sa pisngi ko.

"You don't have to say sorry. I should be. I'm sorry. Please, don't cry." Pag-alo niya sa akin. Niyakap niya ako ng mahigpit at paulit-ulit na hinalikan ang bumbunan ko. "I should be the one saying sorry for acting differently and imagined unpleasant things while watching you running away. It- it left a bad image to me. And I let myself be eaten up to unnecessary thoughts that came rushing down through me that all the things I've done before just popped in. I got... scared," He muttered fastly and slowed down when he said the last three words.

Dumistansya ako ng konti upang tingalain siya at makita ng mas maliwanag ang mukha niya.

"We're now in present, Zachary. And I am here now... beside you," Madamdamin kong saad. I bestowed him an assuring smile while my hands are crawling down to his hands to hold on and clasped it with mine. "And holding you like this. More tight than you could have imagined."

Hindi siya nagsalita. Tinitigan niya lang ako ng ilang segundo. Pagkuwan ay hinila palapit muli sa kanya at inilipat ang mga kamay ko sa likod niya. Niyakap niya ako ng mahigpit at siniksik ang ulo sa leeg ko.

"How I wish I can keep you more closer than this. And more assurance words to hear, I wouldn't be scared and bothered while seeing you afar and even when you lost in my sight."

"Trust." I absentmindedly uttered. It just slipped off from my mouth but I still continue to speak everything I must to tell. "That's what we need, Zachary. A foundation. Hindi tayo mabubuo kung walang pagtitiwala. At iyan ang unang itatayo natin para mabuo tayo. There will be times it would shaken up and tests it's resilience. But I tell you... hinding-hindi tayo matitinag dahil sa matibay ang pundasyon natin."

"I'd gladly build that foundation with you, love. And make it our home," he whispered calmly as he was caressing my long hair that soothes me and makes me really feel at home.

This man I am holding on is whom I will cherish eternally. This conscientious man who made my dull life, bright-colored and sunshine. The man I wrongly labeled as Delphic, yet, he's just way too artless.

Never in my life had been this elated before he came. He had done so much for me and it's now my time to pay off willingly all those things. Neither a cold cash nor gifts, but good moments we'll be sharing together. I wanna let him know and feel how truly happy I am... with him always on my side and that he's consequential to me.

From then on, I was really careful with my actions. Sa tuwing umaalis ako, I was always hesitating. Hindi ko na siya tinatalikuran. Hinihintay ko pa talaga na sumang-ayon siya or sabihin na ihatid ako. Nag-iingat na ako. I don't want to give him another negative impression towards some things. Now I know that he's somewhat... sensitive.

"Ready ka na ba?" Keshia asked like Kris Aquino in GKNB. I answered her with closed-lips smile and nodded.

I will never be ready but I'm preparing myself for whatever that's coming.

I told them about everything that happened between Zachary and me the past days at sobrang saya ko na sinusuportahan nila ako.

We're eating lunch here in McDo. It isn't lunch time yet we agreed to eat early. I informed Zachary about it through text pero hindi pa siya nagrereply. He might still be busy in practice. I'll just take out lunch for him because he might sulk again.