my songs and poems :)

Will You?

trigger warning: mentions of murder, depression.
i wrote this song at the lowest point of my life, when i was at edge and was, plain suicidal. and yes, i asked this to someone. so you've been warned, you can skip if you want.

(verse-1)
I know there'll be a way out
But I'm sick of searching
Can't inch back or fall down
The ground I'll be crashing

I've been spending my time
Writing everything I feel
Can't say if I wanna die
But I just wanna leave
That'll be everything I need

(chorus)
I asked him tonight
That if I give him a knife
"Will you let me die?"
There's no fear or fright
I'll be holding your hands tight
While you take away my life

Will you let me die?
Will you take away my life?
Will you let me die?

(verse-2)
Sixty seven days, sixty eight nights
Screamed loud as I could, tore my skin off
Thought about the million tears and every goddamn fight
Oh, if I ask you to kill me, would you still hold me tight?

(pre-chorus)
That's the only way I could feel alive

(chorus)
I asked him tonight
That if I give him a knife
"Will you let me die?"
There's no fear or fright
I'll be holding your hands tight
While you take away my life

Will you let me die?
Will you take away my life?
Will you let me die?

(bridge)
No, it's not your fault
Don't think you can save me
Thought I was all that I want
But I've been wrong all along
So, one last ride?

No, I'm not what you want
You can't save me
The memories would haunt
But at least I was right all along

(breakdown)
One last (flip of dice)
No more crimes
One last time

(chorus - variation)
If I give you a knife
Will you let me die?
There's no fear or fright
I'll just hold you tight
While you get me away from this life
So could you let me die?

(Outro)
Take away
Let me, let me, let me go
Will you let me go?
Blade inside my stomach,
Will you be able to do it?

Will you let me die?
Will you?

No.