Sunday, January 10th
Serenity P.O.V
Sleep is something I don't experience very often and even when I do it's never enough cause I always wake up and I'm still tired. But today was different for some reason on this Sunday morning I felt more rested than I've felt in years.
Opening my eyes I realize maybe it was to good to be true because I immediately spring a headache, my eyes hurt, my throat feels dry, and my body aches. I feel something move at my side and when I look down I see a sleeping Renée cuddled into me. She looks peaceful but it's soon interrupted when her eyes flutter open and she sees me staring at her in bed with my shirt off I might add.
She screams and falls off the side of the bed. She hit the floor with a loud thud so I'm going to presume she's hurt.
"Are you ok" I ask my voice raspy from the dryness
"Owww" she groans out
"Imma take that as a no" I get up from bed reluctantly making my way to her to help her up "here" I said reaching my hand out for her to grab
Her eyes trailed to the arm helping her up I became self conscious realization hitting me. I immediately grab my sweatshirt that's discarded on the floor. Throwing it on I look at her and see guilt and pity in her eyes. I try to help her again but she disregards it and leaves the room slamming the door.
That hurt
The rest of the day she ignores me. She stays in her room and when she does come down she says hi to the twins and doesn't even acknowledge my presence. It hurt I can't lie I mean I don't remember much from last night but I definitely remember kissing her and the way her body felt against mine.
Around 6pm her grandparents came knocking on the door and I knew that it was time to leave and face reality at home.
"Hi Serenity" Mrs. William's Kacey's mother said making her way into the house with Mr.William's by her side
"Hello Mr. and Mrs.Williams it's nice to see you again" I say in the nicest voice I could muster up
"It's nice to see you to I hope the twins weren't to much trouble for you" Mr. Williams said speaking up
"Of course not they were good as always" I said looking towards the pair of sleeping twins on the couch
"Ahh and where's Renée" upstairs ignoring me is what I wanted to say but refrained
"She's upstairs I have to go though, school tomorrow it was nice seeing you guys"
After I getting home I saw my mother wasn't here I'm not surprised. I go downstairs to my room to take a shower and get ready for tomorrow. Maybe I could try to corner Renée and force her to talk to me. There was a lot of my mind tonight and that definitely didn't help me get sleep before school. I guess I'm staying up
The next morning I wake up for school after only getting about an hour of sleep and get dress. After all that is said and done I go upstairs to find my mother passed out on the couch. 'Nothing new' I think to myself. I carry her upstairs and lay her down in the bed before I leave and shut the door to her bedroom I hear a faint "I'm sorry" come from her and I want nothing more than to stay and lay with her and tell her everything would be ok but I can't I shouldn't.
When I get to school the first thing I do is look for Renée I have to talk to her. I find her near her locker laughing about something with Miles. I want to cry honestly I do but before I can't the warning bell rings and I carry myself off to class. The whole day I try to catch her attention but I can't because every time I get close Miles just has to show up.
Eventually Lunch comes around and I decide to sit with Marcellus. He looks surprised to see me when I sit down next to him and so does his friends but I brush them off and wait for Nicki and Renée to show up. When they finally decide to get here Miles hand is around Renée's shoulder and there laughing about something. It disgusts me
After he goes to his table she comes here and sits down with Nicki. The whole lunch they talking about random bullshit and I'm sitting here trying to catch Renée's attention but she's deliberately acting like I don't exist and it's really pissing me off.
When lunch is over I'm determined to get a conversation out of her so when no one is looking and she's by herself about to leave for the day I grab her and pull her into a empty class room and before she can I scream I cover her my with my hand and shut the door. She licks my hand and I immediately let go. Déjà vu anyone?
"What is your problem" she asked me
"What's my problem are you fucking kidding me...my problem is you you've been avoiding me all damn day and on Sunday so what the fuck is your problem" I told her practically yelling but low enough not to be heard from the outside
She sighed and looked at me, guilt in her eyes but quickly hidden with a look I couldn't quite decipher. "Last night was a mistake" and with that it was like she sucked all the air out of the room and I couldn't even breathe
After a moment I gathered myself back up and asked "what that's supposed to mean"
"Just like I said it was a mistake the whole night"
"How can you say that" we shared something that night we had to right?
"We were drunk and spitting nonsense it didn't mean anything you should forget that it ever happened ok"
"How am I just supposed to forget we kissed Renée" Pain evident in my voice. I hate feeling vulnerable like this but I can't help it she does something to me
"I'm sorry" is she serious?
"Your sorry are you fucking kidding me right now I showed you a part of me I haven't showed anyone in a long ass while and you just wanna forget it happen...you know what I shouldn't have expected you to actually like me in the first place your a bitch you know that" I said looking her dead in the eyes she looked hurt and pissed but I didn't care that's how she made me feel.
"A bitch I'm a bitch" she said smiling. Scary
"You heard what I said"
"Ok wow...what the fuck did you want me to do Serenity wake up in your arms and tell you how much I loved you and that we should be together forever and ever...your a joke, that's not how life works you don't like me and I don't like you let's keep it that way" she said turning around to open the door but before she left she turned around and she said "and Serenity call me out my name again and we gon have a serious issue" she slammed the door in my face
What the fuck just happened?
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Things are getting serious.
These 3am inspiration sparks hit different.
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