Blue

24-The Answer

JAKE'S POV

"Shim Jaeyun."

I can feel him looking at me.

"What?"

I looked at him and I smiled.

"That's my real name. My name is Shim Jaeyun. But I just prefer people to call me Jake."

He sat up. Obviously surprised from what I said. I also need my moment.

"So Jake is not really your name?"

"More like other name but my full name is Shim Jaeyun. Not Shim Jake."

I held his hand again.

There's no turning back anymore. He already proved his worth. It's my time to make him feel the same.

"Why are you making me feel nervous?"

I can really feel him panicking.

"Sunghoon..... We're still young though."

He held my hand tighter. He's not thinking I'll reject him right? Haha.

"But I'd rather take this risk than to lose my chance."

And there goes that smile of his.

"Really? I mean. I need a straight answer Shim Jaeyun."

Of course I know that he wants to hear it by himself haha. I stood up. He looked at me.

"Aren't you planning to stand up?"

He's disappointed I can see it. The moment he's in front of me, I hurriedly went in front of him and tiptoed. Yeah I need it to fully reach him. Not my fault he's this tall.

I tiptoed and kissed his cheeks.

I felt him froze. Bet you're not expecting that huh? If he thinks he's the only one who can pull tricks, I can also do it.

I didn't stopped there. I hugged him. It feels right. I love it.

"It's a yes Sunghoon. I will always say yes to you."

I felt him hug back. And this time, I felt at ease. I knew it myself that I made the right choice. I don't need other people's opinion about this. Just Sunghoon alone is enough. This really feels like home.
He is my home.

It's already late and yet Sunghoon still doesn't want to let go of my hand.

"Hoonie let's go home already duh?"

He didn't speak. We're just walking. I actually like it. This is the first time I would walk at night with the colors.

I know we're heading home. But he doesn't want to let go of my hand. I don't want mom to see it.

"Love"

I don't even know why I turned to him almost immediately. Sunghoon is stopping his smiles. Why?

"What are you laughing at?"

"I called you love, you look back. So you're admitting that you're my love?"

Okay I'm flustered.

"Why? I-is it bad? I'm really your l-love right?"

I hate this stutterings.

"Yes you are. The one and only."

He's so confident isn't he? I kinda hate it. I don't have the idea how is he even doing it.

"Hoonie...."

I called him. He needs to know about mom.

"Hmmm? You can call me love too. You need to be fair love."

Damn it. He's distracting me.

"And why would I do that?"

"If you really love me. Then call me love."

Is that how we're supposed to measure love now?

"Fine. Love."

"There. It's nice to hear it from you."

He said then he kept quiet again.

"Love."

I called him again. And he's smiling. He's so whipped hah.

"Yes love?"

"About mom—"

"Don't worry. Everything's going to be alright."

Why did he cut me? He knows something. I can feel it. I stared at him but he looked normal.

What are you hiding love?