Part of this special Chapter is on Ysa's story Chapter 14 Happy reading!
Mara
I sighed seeing Matteo like this really pains me. Marami naman talaga syang naging kasalanan pero di naman nya deserve na masaktan ng ganito.
"Nagkaroon ka na naman ng lisensyang uminom ng madami ano?"
"Love."
I smiled and seated beside him.
"Yang ginagawa mo, hindi nakakatanda yan."
He sighed. Tumigil naman sya ng paginom at binitiwan ang hawak nyang beer.
"Nasasanay ka na ba at hindi ko na nakikitang lumuluha ka?"
This time kasi hindi na umiiyak si Matti. Hindi kagaya noong nangyari yung kay Sab at kay Kaia. Ngayon, ramdam ko na malungkot sya pero di ko nakikitang umiiyak sya.
"Sobrang sakit lang nitong kay Ysabelle Love. Sobrang sakit na di maabot ng luha ko."
"Nakakatatlo na tayo, dapat sanay na tayo kasi hindi na talaga baby ang girls natin."
"Ang sakit Love eh. Naisip ko tuloy, kung buhay si Mama mo, ganito rin ang naramdaman nya sa ginawa ko sa'yo. I made you a mistress, I made you an option. I hurt you so bad that I break you to pieces. Now, this is my karma, it's all coming back to me."
"Love, alam mong wala kang kasalanan sa nangyari kay Kaela."
"Pero."
"Uulitin ko ha? This one is Kaela's choice. Whatever happened to her, it's because she chose this one."
"Pero Love, ginawa ko rin sa'yo ito."
"Oo nga, kaya nga sa akin ka may kasalanan at napatawad na kita kasi matagal ka nang nakabawi."
"Bakit ba kasi ginawa ni Ysabelle yun Love? Matalino naman sya! Alam naman nyang masasaktan sya? Pero bakit Love? Tingnan mo tuloy sya ngayon, sobra syang nasasaktan."
"Kasi nagmahal sya Love. Ako din naman diba? I hurt myself because I love you. You take the pain because you love me. Nagmahal sya, hindi nga lamang sa taong para sa kanya. Ang importante ngayon Love, yung andito tayo sa likod nya. Kagaya nga ng sinabi sa atin ni Annika, nagalit na tayo, nasampal mo na ng dalawang beses, tama na yun. "
Matti sighed.
"Do you think our Ysabelle is okay?"
"This ruckus happened because your daughter finally made herself her own priority. Kaela may be hurting now but she seemed fine and she's on the better path. She'll get through this. Isa pa, matapang ang panganay mo na yun, nakuha nya kay Mommy Nikka."
"But she left without a word, Love."
"Baka kagaya ko lamang din sya Love, she just needed time off to heal, she'll come back soon."
"Love, kasalanan ko talaga lahat ito. Kung hindi ako naging gago noon hindi sana----"
"Kung hindi ka naging gago, hindi siguro ikaw ang asawa ko, hindi siguro ako ang asawa mo, walang ganito kasi wala namang tayo. Matti, let's move on. Let our children own their mistakes because all of those pains are all part of the choices they made."
"But more than me, I know it pained you more Love."
I sighed. Totoo naman. Ako yung naging kabit, ako ang nakasakit noon. Kaya ako ang mas guilty but of course, I won't let my husband know the pain of it. He already had a lot to take in.
"It hurts, I won't lie but it's easier to take in because I have you."
Matti hugged me.
"What will I do without you Love?"
"Ayun, siguro happy life ka, siguro sakit ka pa rin ng ulo ng Mommy, at malamang nambababae ka pa rin!"
"Love!"
I laughed.
"Joke lang. But Love, you must understand that our children aren't perfect at kasama doon yung masasaktan nila tayo. Pero kahit ganoon, I believe it would never be the intention of our girls to hurt us. Mahal tayo ng mga anak natin, mahal nila tayo ng sobra. Just that, pain is inevitable as they take their own paths. Let's just be there to share the pain and the joy. Hindi ba't masaya naman tayo na mayroon na tayong mga apo?"
Matti smiled hearing the word apo. Kung mayroon mang higit na makakapagpangiti sa amin , yun ay ang mga apo namin.
"Mahal din kita ng sobra sobra Love, I hate whatever that makes you cry."
I smiled.
"I know that already, we're over 30 years together Matti."
I leaned on his shoulders.
"Don't drink too much already okay? May dalawa ka pa."
"Love!"
"Yung isa mejo may pag-asa ka pero yung bunso Love, yun ang pagipunan mo ng mas mahabang pasensya. Kaya matulog na tayo?"
"God! I love you so much, Mara. You will always be the best thing that happened to me."
I smiled and pulled him so we can go to bed.
Hindi ko maiwasan ang mapangiti. 30 years ago, I wouldn't even dare to think that Matti would have a heart like this. He was a selfish guy. But look at him now, he loves me more than I can imagine, he cares for his children more than enough. I am happy he turned to be like this. Kung noon, dasal ko na hindi kagaya ni Matti ang maging asawa ng mga anak ko, ngayon, I'd even go on novenas just for my girls to find someone like their father for a husband.
Two more girls, I just hope these two girls won't make their Daddy afraid of his past anymore. Kahit impossible, umaasa ako. Because my Matti deserved to be happy, really really happy.
