Dream (Johnnie Guilbert)

Leaving

Chapter 15: Leaving

*Johnnie's POV*

After Hazel Willaw signed some papers at the hospital, we left to go back to my place. She already told our friends why she had to go to the hospital.

She sits down on my bed, holding her blue and purple blanket close to her. I sit down next to her
I Can Make This Pretty Girl Fall For Me If I Keep My Clever Charm Intact. (-AustinJones)

I hug Hazel from the side. I just want her to be mine.. But she doesn't feel the same about me, I just know.

*Hazel's POV*

I'm really starting to like Johnnie, I just wish that he's just like Automatically knew that I like him.

"would you ever date me?" he questions randomly "I mean like if we like liked each other" he adds. See he doesn't like like me

"I-i.. Umm. Yeah i think maybe" i answer

"you 'think maybe'?" he ask "what do you mean by that?"

"I just don't want you to think that there is some Power Dynamic, cause it would be like a weird relationship between the fan and the artist. I'm like a fan to you cause your the artist/YouTuber. The fan always puts the amazing artist/YouTuber on like a pidistole, and that's not good cause healthily fuctioning relationships are all about equal power dynamics and mutual respect.
So let's say your fan/girlfriend loves your music or your YouTube videos and loves your personality and loves your whole persona that your doing, your girlfriend would be putting you on that pidistole and the good relationship would want equality, if that made sense" I explain

It takes him a bit of time to respond "it made sense, just took a secound to put all of that together.. I don't think of you as just the fan, I think of you as my Bestfriend. So far our friendship hasn't had any time where you always and only put me first. I feel like we're both doing equal things for each other. Tell me how you feel right now about this relationship" he says

"we'll I don't think I did anything that a fan would just do" I don't like calling people just fans but I don't know another to say it "I really like you as a Bestfriend. When we're hainging out, I always forget that your even a YouTuber and you sing really well, I see you as a 'regular' person" I say

He kisses my cheek. "I'd date you.. If we like liked each other" he tells me

"I'd date you too" I respond

He smiles and kisses my cheek once more. I know I've always wanted to be kissed under the stars but, under Johnnie's celling is fine.

I feel like he wants to kiss me too.

But I don't like like Johnnie, do I?

No I don't but I want to kiss him cause I'm curious, that's why, that's gotta be it. Before I could lean in myself, he does and pecks my lips then he pulls away slowly.

".. I-I'm sorry.. I didn't mean t-to do that" he apologises

I probably look so dumbfounded. Did that really happen?. That was my first kiss? Isn't a first kiss is when you kiss back to the person kissing you? Am I suppose to feel all different kind of feels when he touched his lips to mine? I don't even remember what I felt when he peck my lips, my mind was all empty.

"n-no no. Don't be sorry" I choke

"I should be sorry.. You want to be kissed under the stars with some you like... I just kissed you in my room with me. That isn't good enough" he states

"really Johnnie.. Don't be sorry. Its okay.. I didn't mind it" I say

".. Okay.... But I still feel a little sorry" he avers