Tea of the Scandalous Nights (Marchero Series #3)

Chapter 22

"Can you just accept na ayoko ng madamay pa? sa pamilya mo o sayo! hindi ba pwedeng umalis ka nalang?" 

"Iwan mo nalang ako... ayoko ng masaktan pa kaya tanggapin nalang natin..." I looked at him pleading to stop this, this is so messed up at kapag pinag-patuloy pa namin baka maubos na kami lalo, I know I have to fight for us but how? I can't just say to him that I love him even his hurting me, I can't stay with him even my father is going to ruin and him, I can't see him losing his family just to have me, I can't risk it.

His jaw tightened after he heard what I've said to him, I beg him to let me go and just continue pursuing his dreams.

Napaupo siya sa bangko habang nakatitig sakin at tuluyan na tinggal ang neckte niya.

"Bakit napakadali sayo na bitawan ang lahat ng meron tayo?" tanong niya at napahilamos siya sa mukha niya, ramdam ko ang sakit sa tanong niya, kaya hindi ko siya nagawang tingnan ng matagal at napatingin sa pader.

"Kase kailangan natin... Oo kaya mo kong ipaglaban sa magulang mo hanggang maubos ka pero paano ako? hindi ko kaya na mahirapan yung magulang ko habang pinili kita kahit gusto kong lumaban talo na ako..." mahina kong sagot sa kanya at binalik ang tingin sa kanya.

"I can't risk for us dahil matatalo lang tayo..." tumayo ako at naglakad papunta sa kanya at hinawakan ang pareho niyang kamay at tinaas bahagya.

"I hate seeing you in pain pero mas hindi ko kaya na masaktan ang magulang ko habang pinipili kita para lang sumaya ka..." I weakly smiled at him.

"I can't be selfish like you, be brave as you..." my tears start flowing in my cheeks. I bent down to reach his forehead to kiss it.

"I love you, take care.." I slowly step back he grabs both of my hands and pulled me closer to him and hugged me tightly.

"I hate you... but if this what you really fucking wanted to lose me and to lose us, i-it's f-fine." he gulped after he said that and hugged me tightly.

I know he's saying that just to comfort me, but his action is different, he wants to keep me on his side forever and never to leave him.

"Go..." he whispers in my ears and kisses the top of my head.

"Before I stop you, don't look back to me when you're going away.." he slowly let go of me. 

I bit my lower lip from stoping myself, I slowly walked to the door and hold the handle and opened it, like what he said I do not look back or even make a sound, I just leave him there, crying and alone.

I wish I didn't, I wish I stay and comfort him and say I love him and I will never leave but no I have to do this.

I take a taxi and go home, I'm just crying at the taxi, buti nalang at hindi ako tinatanong ng driver dahil buong byahe ay umiiyak ako sa gilid.

Binayaran ko siya at lumabas, nakita ko ang buong bahay mula sa labas at nakita na papalabas si Daddy na may hawak na maleta...