Day Dream [Dreamwastaken x OC]

Chapter 33

(edited)

"Am I too high and imagining things?"

"I just hung up the phone" he tells me holding his stupid phone in his stupid hot hand

"You can't be here" I say "Who even let you in"

"The door was open"

"No it wasn't, I locked it" I say, then the realization hit me "Fucking Nick, he's done for" I say trying to barge out of my room, but he grabs me

His hands burn on my skin and I jump back

"I'm sorry" Clay looks hurt

I notice him being nervous, picking at his fingernails. I rarely saw him like this, just when he was about to play that one important tournament

"You can't be here" I repeat

"You called me" he defends himself

"I panicked"

"You still called me" Clay insists, taking a step forward and closing the door behind him "You should know better, you know how mixing weed and alcohol gets you... I had to save you once, remember?"

Of course I fucking do

"Why do you think I felt the need to 'get like this' Clay?" I cry "Want me to enlighten you?"

He stands still, not knowing what to say or do, I can see in his eyes he wants to stand up for himself and give his opinion.

He always has a dammed opinion.

"It's because of you. After I told you how I felt you left me- left me there under the rain, Clay" I say trying to fight the tears swelling in my eyes

"I needed to think Charlotte" he says

"Think? Are you kidding me?"

"Did you forget how you kissed a random guy in front of me?" he says "And have to listen to you on stream gush about a date, next thing I know I accidentally ran into you on this same date which by the way was with the same guy you cheated on me with"

"I didn't cheat" I begin but I get cut off by him

"Oh you didn't? Then why were you kissing your brother's friend, huh?" he questions me

"Everything I did was because of you" I point at him "For everything you said and did that night" I say "You outed my assault Clay, you of all people know how bad it was... You were there. For fucks sake you had to get the guy off me"

I walk closer to him, putting my finger on his chest in an accusing tone "You were there" I repeat  "You fucking saved me... and I- I wasn't ready to tell anyone yet" I cry out "You took that decision away from me"

He stays silent once again, I take this as a chance to expand on what I couldn't say that night.

"I wanted you, you were the only thing that mattered... And after you- you said those things I couldn't take it anymore" I begin, finally getting my chance to explain myself

"I needed to get my mind off of you and what you said. I know it was fucked up, but I was drunk, ok? I wasn't thinking straight, I am not thinking straight, I can't when it comes to you"

I start pacing around the room

"And I'm genuinely sorry about Troy, if I could take it back, I would... But in that moment it seemed like the best thing I could do to make it not hurt"

Clay still remains silent, dumbfounded because of what I just explained. I can notice him starting to get nervous again, picking at his fingernails

"I-" he sighs, taking a big deep breath in "I'm sorry too"