𝙢𝙮 𝙗𝙧𝙤𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙧𝙨 𝙗𝙚𝙨𝙩 𝙢𝙖𝙩𝙚 - phil foden

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"y/n, keep talking to me. it'll take your mind off it." i hear phil say

"please." he repeats

"i would come over, but i'm kind of stuck here." he says making me smile

"there we go." he says, "can we speak?"

"i'll t-try." i say

"perfect, thats all we need. i just want you to be okay, do you know what has caused this?" he asks me

"no...just as soon as the nurse left me in here to go get you guys i felt really really nervous, never as nervous as before  and couldn't stop shaking." i say

"do you think it was a panic attack?" phil asks

*just want to put out there to people who do suffer with them, first you're really strong and i hope you're okay. you shouldn't self diagnose serious things for example, anxiety. because so many people go through it day by day. *

 "but i've been fine up until now." i say

"these things can grow on you." phil explains

"i don't know, but i'm feeling quite stressed talking about it." i say

"lets talk about something else then. wedding?" he asks as i shut my eyes

*PHIL'S POV*

"y/n?" i repeat as i get no reply

i slightly push myself up on the chair, making sure the babies were okay. i can just abut see her, she'd fallen asleep.

but she deserves her rest.

bentley starts crying, surprisingly i manage to calm him down without waking her up. i look down at my three children, how the fuck did i get so lucky. they are all perfect, absolutely perfect. 

"asleep?" a doctor asks entering the room with the same nurse

"i was talking to her then she just shut her eyes and went to sleep." i explain

"what was she talking about?" he asks me

"nothing much, she was describing how she felt when she was alone in the room but then she said it was making her feel worse talking about it." i say

"tell me exactly what she described." the doctor says

"she said she felt really really nervous, never as nervous before and couldn't stop shaking." i say

he looks at the nurse and they both nod.

"what? what is it?" i ask

"let me go find someone..." the doctor says leaving the room

"is she okay?" i ask

"she's okay, we are going to run through a few things with her." she tells me, "i don't think you can be in the room sorry, but i'll help you now get the babies safely back to another room."

"what are you running through?" i ask

"a specialist is going to ask her a few things, she's going to talk to them just like she did you. and we are going to see if what happened earlier, is a sign of anything." the nurse tells me

"i was right." i say

"about what?" she asks

"i asked her if she thought it was a panic attack." i explain

"we don't know anything yet, not until the doctor is back." she says, "let me grab one of these munchkins."

she comes over and takes cali, i stand up with addi and bentley in either arm.