scared, sacred and scarred

chapter 21

POV no one: After a few more minutes of hugging Blakely finally pulled back,
"I'm sorry." She said looking at her feet. When she didn't get a response she looked up at the two adults, with tears in her eyes and said, "I really am. Please don't hate me. I don't want to go back to the home. I promise I will be good, please mamà I will do anything." By now she was full on sobbing again.

Slowly, as to not frighten the small fragile girl, Carina reached forward and lifted Blakely's chin so that they were making eye contact. "You, my beautiful bambina, have nothing to be sorry for, non è minimamente colpa tua."
(translation: "this is not your fault in the slightest.")

Then Maya jumped in and said, "And baby, we would never, ever, send you back there, not in a million years you hear me? Never ever."

To this Blakely just nodded, still fearful of the thought of her moms changing their minds.

"So I can still stay here?" Blakely asked, needing more confirmation.

"Of course bambina, we love you so much and we couldn't imagine you anywhere else." Carina told her, being completely honest as she was before.

"I-I....I love you." The small girl stuttered with tears still rolling down her face.

She had finally said it, she said those three words that made her feel so vulnerable. Of course Maya and Carina knew that Blakely loved them but she had never said it. Some nights as they were walking out they heard some mumbles that sounded like "I love you to" but they were never sure.

"Oh Blakers, we love you to. So much my girl, more then you will ever know." Maya responded while pulling her into a hug and picking her up to rest her on her hip.

"Love you so much mommy. And mamà too." She said suppressing a yawn.

Maya and Carina couldn't be more happier in that moment, their daughter was ok, and Blakely finally realized that it's ok to tell them she loves them.

"Now as much as I love this snuggle time, I am super hungry and i'm hoping your mamà will make some of her delicious spaghetti." Maya said, hinting at the Italian that she wanted spaghetti for dinner. Thankfully Carina got the memo and said, "Alright bambina, looks like I have to make your mommy some spaghetti, would you like to help or keep cuddling with your mommy?"

Now most people thought this was an easy decision, but Blakely found it very hard. She was warm and content in Maya's arms, but she loved cooking with Carina. She had never made spaghetti with Carina before, but she also never got much snuggle time with Maya.

She continued to think about her decision when Maya spoke up, "Are you not sure what you wanna do bubba?" She asked, and Blakely nodded as she buried her face into Maya's neck. Carina silently "awed" at them.
"How bout we go help mamà together? I can still hold you and you can still help?" Maya suggested. Once again Blakely nodded, not even bothering to bring up the thought that she might be to heavy for Maya to carry, even tho she was light as a feather. The family made their way down the stairs and into the kitchen as Carina started to get all the ingredients out.

The family cooked the spaghetti together, all the while Blakely was still attached to Maya. Both adults weren't sure why she was so clingy all of a sudden but they weren't going to say anything about it because god knows they enjoyed the snuggle time.

After the family ate dinner and cleaned up Blakely changed to PJ's and walked downstairs with her stuffed animal and favourite blanket. Catching the eyes of Maya and Carina, they motioned for her to come sit with them on the couch to watch a show. The woman could clearly see how tired the girl was, obviously from the earlier events that took place, but they let her stay with them downstairs for about an hour until they decided that she should get some rest.

"Ok princess, I think it's time you get to bed now, why don't you go upstairs and me and mamà will meet you up there to tuck you in." Maya said.

Blakely nodded sadly, not that Maya or Carina could see that she was sad, but all she wanted to do was keep cuddling with her moms. Maybe they don't want to cuddle with me? What if they think i'm being clingy or annoying? Since those were the only reasons she could come up with as to why the told her to go upstairs because it's a Friday and she's allowed to stay up to 11 on Friday's and Saturday's, and it was only 9:30, they must have thought she was being clingy. Without even knowing it the tears fell down her face for the millionth time that day. Maya and Carina had walked in and when they saw the tears on their daughters face again they ran over to her.

"What's wrong bambina?" Carina asked.

"Are you hurt? Are you in pain?" Maya butted in.

"Do you need me to get you some medicine bella?" Carina asked again.

"No i'm sorry, it's ok, i'm good." Blakely lied.

"Bambina...." Carina pushed.

"Do you think i'm being clingy and annoying?" She blurted out.

"Baby why would you think that?" Maya wondered.

"Because...because we were cuddling and then you told me to go upstairs."

"Oh no," Maya started, "I told you go upstairs because I could see you were practically falling asleep."

"Oh." Blakely said, realizing she got it all wrong.

"Bambina, do you still want to cuddle? Is that why your a little sad?" Carina asked, trying to get to the root of the problem.

Blakely nodded sadly, feeling ashamed but not knowing why.

"That's ok hun, we can still cuddle, how bout you sleep in our bed tonight?" Maya suggests.

"Please?" Blakely asked.

"Of course my love."

So Blakely grabbed her stuffed animal and held Carina's hand as the three girls walked to the master bedroom.

"Mamà?"

"Si?"

"I'm cold."

"Ahh that's an easy fix." Carina told her, she went to grab a hoodie and then she slid it over Blakely's head. The hoodie practically engulfed the girls whole body.

Maya came out of the bathroom laughing at the adorable sight in front of her as she climbed into bed with her two favourite people.

"Smells like mamà." Blakely mumbled, smelling the hoodie.

The older women just smiled at her and kissed her forehead.

"Goodnight my loves." Maya said.

"Night night mommy. Love you." Blakely said, placing a kiss on Maya's cheek. Next she did the same thing with Carina then she fell asleep in between her two favourite people.

Heyyyyy so here's an update! it's thanksgiving here this weekend, (monday is thanksgiving for us canadians!) so if any readers her are canadian then happy thanksgiving! anyways hope you enjoyed the chapter, make sure to tell me ur ideas!