hysteria ; Mattheo Riddle

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12.22.16

guess when you turn out the lights
you can't really see much anymore
guess when you're left in the dark
nobody's there to show you the door — puzzle
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I walked along the dirt path, i still had my pajamas on, which was a silk night gown that went down just below my knees, my straps were lace, i had black socks on

i didn't realize how cold it was, snow still covered the ground but the dirt path was clear

i crossed my arms, my hands covering some of my arm

the sun shines down on me, casting a glow the earth was illuminated by its warm hazy shine

i walked down the path still full of anger, my heart felt heavy and full of anger

"accio Geneva potters wand" i mumbled under my breath as i got deeper into the forest, i felt the hard dirt under my clothed feet the cold winter weather piercing and sending daggers down my spine

i was about to do something i never thought i would do

it was something so evil that i would be forbidden to ever see my family again, they wouldn't want to see me

it's an awfully bad thing that i'm about to do, but all i'm seeing is red, a red haze, something strong in me, something hateful, it's something that wanted to destroy every living happy thing

my eyes ached, along with that everything else did, my arms, stomach, i needed to release this, whatever this is

now that my wand was with me i could do whatever i want

maybe not everything, because i don't hold that much power but i just wanted to release whatever this feeling is

i found a small squirrel on a log, the log was covered in snow, the squirrel made footprints on the log as it ran across the wood

i lifted up my wand, power running through the wand and my veins

"crucio" i whispered under my breath, watching the squirrel squeak and move around, tiny squeals came from the animals  mouth 

i had to do this, well i don't have to, but it's the only thing that can release what is inside me, whatever this pain is that is being held inside me needs to be let go

i never thought in my life i would hurt an animal, but here i am in a nightgown with socks on in the cold

still watching the animal in pain, something deep inside me arose

i couldn't tell what it was, pleasure? hurt? we don't know, i don't think we will ever know

"of course it's pleasure" he said. answering for me

"no riddle. i'm not you. for you it's pleasure!" i hissed bitterly at him.

it was the situation i was in. the anger. i was angry. and when anyone is angry it's hard to control it.

i'm not mean. i don't hurt people and animals.

he looked at me thinking about what to say.

"your right" he paused. then smirked. i spoke up. tired. "listen riddle if your going to kill me. kill me now. no one's stopping you" he raised his eyebrow by my words

he hummed "not yet" he continued "soon enough though" he continued to smirk

then just like. gone. i was left alone.

authors note—
it's been awhile :) and i know it's short. but here's a chapter after so long. i'll post another soon enough

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