hysteria ; Mattheo Riddle

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march. 3rd. 17
Friday

The intoxicating fragrance filled my nostrils, and took over me

the sense of comfort was gone though.

i could barely remember anything from last night

waking up in his bed made my heart start to race, i quickly sat up and pushed some hair behind my ears, my legs fell to the side of the bed and my feet caught my balance as my eyes scanned the room for my bag

mattheo wasn't anywhere to be seen, i looked over to the bathroom. the light was on, the shower was running.

i still had my clothes on from last night, i ran out of his dorm room and slammed the door behind me, i had my hood up and my head down only looking at my feet

it would be bad if anyone saw me.

I attended all my classes besides mattheos.
i couldn't bring myself to go, and deal with him and gavin and vincella

i stayed in the prefects bathroom, even after class was dismissed, i had a cigarette in between my fingers, i was sitting on the toilet... pants up of course... i wouldn't be pissing and smoking at the same time. not right now at least.

"Geneva i know your in here" recognizing the similar voice i opened the stall and peeked my head out, Cerelia

"hey" i said quietly. "what's been going on with you ?... have you been using again" she whispered the last part

pausing, and thinking about what i should say. i couldn't lie to her.

"no not necessarily..." "what does that even mean", she rushed over to me and stood right in front of me, i backed up and sat back down, inhaling the smoke

"i relapsed cerelia" i couldn't look her in her eyes so my eyes stayed glued to the ground

She let out a loud huff, "Geneva... there is no saving you"

Looking back up at her, her words were like needles poking at my heart, it hurt for me to hear but it was the sad naked truth

"Yeah, i know" I fronted, keeping a strong act like what she had said didnt bother me

1am

Walking through the halls late at night, a cigarette in between the tip of my fingers, I was making my way to the astronomy tower, the air was silent and fragile. Could be broken easily with any voice.

I leaned against the railing, letting all the bad thoughts leave my mind, waiting for the sense of comfort to enter my body and mind.

Someone had broken the silence just with their voice, snapping my head around quickly to see who it was. "Go away gavin" i spoke sharply, my head turned back to looking across the lake and mountains.

"I'd rather not" he continued on, "i didn't think you would be up here Ms. Potter " I scoffed.

"Well... i wanted to come up here because–" i had cut myself off, i didnt really want to speak to a prick like him about my issues.

"Continue ?" He also leaned against the railing, oddly close, a little too close for my comfort which had caused me to inch a little farther from him.

"I won't bite... not tonight" he went on speaking smoothly, "So Potter, now tell me what lead you to be up here tonight" i didn't dare look at him

"What does it matter to you" i sighed, throwing the cigarette off of the tower

"Curiosity"

"Well if it's that, then you don't need to know. Your just gonna use it against me in the end anyways, so i'll save myself from telling you anything about me"

I felt his stare. It was like his eyes were glued to me, I forced my eyes to meet with his.

I wanted to know so bad what he was thinking at this moment

3RD PERSON POV

Gavin wanted to know why she was up here, he didn't know why he was trying to make conversation with her, behind his two different colored eyes was a war

He got closer to her, she didn't budge, he didn't know if this was out of fear or waiting to see what would happen, but he was into it.

A small grin appeared on his face as their noses were almost touching, closing his eyes for a moment, his lips briskly touched hers, before she pushed him away

Geneva spoke in a harsh out of breath voice "Whatever you're trying to do here its not working" she lightly bit down on her lip

Gavin felt this strong urge to be closer to her, he didn't know what to do, he pushed her roughly into the concrete wall, she let out a gasp as tears started to make their way down her rosy cheeks

"Fuck you" she whispered under her breath.

"What was that!" he snapped at her, she was too scared too move, closing her eyes wanting this too all be over. She hated these moments, his scent filled her nose, and made her heart speed up even more

Thinking to herself 'can someone just save me' in that moment she knew at times like this all she had was herself, she could only save herself

Forcing her eyes back open, fighting for dominance with his pupils, he growled quietly under his breath, the anger and tension clogged the air, she knew she had to do something, cause no one else would, or would even consider doing, i mean this was grindelwald's son himself, flesh and blood who wouldn't be scared

Geneva kneed him in the balls, she smiled to herself as he dropped down to the ground groaning in pain, she took this chance to run and get away from there and into safety

She ran as fast as possible and didnt stop till she reached her dorm, she quickly locked the door and slid against it, after what seemed like a few minutes was actually an half hour, she finally calmed down and became drowsy

She urged herself to get up and make it to the bed

Falling asleep, not bothering to change into new clothes, or get a shower or anything, or even get under the covers