I'm tired of black men...but then again I'm not

Justin - My Last Chapter

***Bonus Chapter***

I know you all probably hate me which is justifiable.

Shit, I fucked up big time.

After KaShay walked out of the door and out of my life for good. I stood there for a minute; taking in everything that took place, repeatedly.

It didn't feel real yet. I just knew she was gonna turn back around and walk right back through the door, back into my arms.

Unfortunately, she didn't and that's when I knew it was really over.

Except, I didn't want it to end; especially, not like that. So I jumped into our rental and drove straight to the airport to get my woman back.

I needed Shay to hear me out and let me explain that I didn't want Samantha and never did. I wanted to tell her the kiss was an accident and meant nothing to me. That she's all I want and need and will always want. She is the only woman for me. 

Once I arrived at the airport it was difficult to find her because I didn't know what airline she was flying back on and she wasn't answering any of my calls or texts.

I literally looked for her in every fucking terminal.

Yeah, I can't believe I did that shit either.

But I would do it again, every day for the rest of my life, if that's what it took for me to get my Shay back.

Fully exhausted and defeated, I gave up around ten pm looking for her, and figured she was already on her flight back to AZ.

Still coming to terms that Shay was really gone. Gone out of my life forever. I stayed in the airport for the remainder of the night brooding over her.

It was about midnight when I finally decided to give up and go home, well back to my parent's house.

It looked like the Christmas party had cleared out by the time I returned, which is good because I didn't want to deal with anyone, plus after Shay left so did my spirit.

When I entered the house my mom and Samantha were in our dining room area waiting for me.

The last two people I wanted to see.

My mom immediately embraced me when I walked into the dining room.

"It's okay my handsome son. I did you a favor by removing her. She just wasn't suitable for you," she confesses while rubbing my back.

I immediately detach myself from her and take a step back to look at her.

Is she fucking crazy?

I love Shay with all my heart!

I knew my mother would have an issue with her being a black woman and her being thick at that. My mom thinks every woman needs to be a size two or they're fat. Which is far from the truth. I love my woman to have some meat on them, something to grab, hold and love on. And I enjoyed every inch of Shay. She could do no wrong in my eyes.

She is beautiful in every way and I truly love her. 

However, it's not up to my mother to decide who I date, that's my choice and why she thought she could implement her opinion is beyond me.

I honestly would've never brought Shay here if I knew my mother was going to act this damn childish.

I mean, I kind of knew my parents would feel some type of way, but not to the point where they would try and sabotage our relationship.

Couldn't they tell how happy I was?

Couldn't they see the way I gleamed every time Shay looked at me?