I'm Coming Back For More - Joonas Porko

Not Again

It's been almost two days since actually Joonas broke up for real with me.

I really can't remember if i had went out of Niko's apartment for once these days.

I really didn't want to see anyone or i wasn't in the mood to speak with someone.

The only one that would make me feel better was this crazy guitarist that i actually fucked up his life because i couldn't control what my ex was doing.

But he hurted me and it hurt like hell when he said that he doesn't love me anymore. I don't know if he's liying but if he did, then he is the best actor.
Maybe i could give you an Oscar Joonas

But If he meant everything then there were not a lot things holding me back in Finland for now.

I didn't sleep the previous night because i had to take a decision.

It was hard and actually it was the last thing i would choose but maybe it's better this way for atleast some days or month's.

I stayed up all night and wrote a letter for Joonas, i didn't want to leave this way again and my heart was still telling me that he had something for me. Love can't die this easily

Niko was in the kitchen when i got out of the room, holding a suitcase in my hand.

"Good morning" i walked where he was sitting

"What's that?" He pointed in my things looking more confused than ever

I knew that he didn't like what i was about to say, but it was my only way.

"I'm leaving, going to Oslo" i mumbled and he got up shocked

"Again? No no please Aleksja we need you even if you broke up with Joonas it doesn't mean that you don't have us" he grabbed my hands "and I'm sure that the fucking idiot stubborn blondie still loves you"

"Maybe? But the look in his eyes was different, this wasn't my Joonas but a person with feelings made of ice" i looked on Niko but he still was worried

"Still doesn't mean you can leave this easily us or the band or your life here" he was moving around the room nervously

I would never dare to leave them again this way. They saved me in one of the lowest parts of my life, and made me join the band again, we shared so beautiful moments again together and i would dare to leave so easily?

"Niko..." He stopped and looked on me "just for a month or even less, i just want to get my brains together and clear my mind" now i was the one grabbing his hands trying to calm him down

"If it passes one month and one day I'm getting to Oslo to get you no matter what" i nodded and chuckled on his words

My flight was for the afternoon so we had sometime. Niko of course had to call the others. Everyone except one actually but it didn't matter now.

All of them tried to change my mind

"I will let you make remixes of the songs if you don't leave" Aleksi said and the others laughed

"Oh God I'll miss you so much" i got up and hugged him tightly "but little man remember, just for a month" i looked on him and chuckled

When i meet with Aleksi for first time i actually didn't expect that he would mean so much to me in such a short time, but i was wrong and I'm glad that i was.

He is an amazing person, so hardworking and talented. We got so lucky to have him

It was almost time everyone left after accepting that it would be just a month and after making me agree that i would call them every day.