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36.

4 months later

"Jaelen can you get KJ from school today? I have an appointment so I can't" Ximora said as she put lotion on her arms.

"Everything straight?" He asked as he came out the bathroom and put on some sweats

"Yea, I just have to go for a check up" she lied.

"Oh okay. But yea I can get her, you still gon be able to do lunch wimme?" He asked.

"Mhmm" she sounded sliding her computer and iPad into her Telfar bag.

Before she could walk out, Jaelen pulled her back to him and kissed her.

"Have a good day" she smiled, pulling him into another kiss.

"I love you girl" he smiled wrapping his arm around her waist and holding onto her.

"I love you too" she said walking out.

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Ximora breezed through her three classes of the day, then left to meet back up with Jaelen.

Once they finished lunch, she headed to Jade's house.

"What time is the appointment?" She asked Jade.

"Umm they said four-thirty" Jade said handing her the bag.

Ximora peeked inside and shook her head.

"I don't want to think about it now, let's cook something so I can get my mind off of it"

Jade laughed "What you want to cook girl?"

"Ummm I can do some stuffed chicken breast"

Jade nodded and helped her start pulling everything out.

"Y'all been using protection?" Jade asked.

"Girl we was supposed to take my mind off it" Ximora shook her head and laughed.

"..well have y'all?"

"Yes.. no.. sometimes" she laughed.

"We been real careless since she said it's very unlikely that I can get pregnant" Ximora explained.

"Well she never said it was impossible" Jade pointed out.

Ximora sighed "I know.. I really don't wanna be pregnant Jade I cannot handle that"

"What? But you really good with KJ and Maliyah" Jade said.

"It's not that, it's like what if I am pregnant. Then we lose it because she said if I do end up pregnant it's a high chance I won't carry full term"

"Again, she didn't say there's no chance. You gotta stop speaking negativity around yourself" Jade said.

Ximora wiped the tears that fell from her eyes.

"I just really wanted to have a regular life Jade. Like shit been happening to me since I was born, and I thought this was finally the time shit would stop" she said.

Jade hugged her "Things are always going to happen, because that's just life. It's sucks, but you gotta keep going mamas"

Jade talked to her some more, then they decided to just order food.