Sab
I went home that day with Jun and Paulo accompanying me. Just like that, I woke up from a dream, just like that, I felt like it will just only me and this baby.
I went to school early, nagulat nga si Myelle na nauna pa ako gumising sa kanya. I was already on my seat when everyone came. Oh, I exchanged seats with Jun para kami ni Paulo ang magkatabi.
"You don't need to do this Sab."
"Paulo, please."
"Okay, pero hindi mo naman pwedeng iwasan si Ian forever."
"Paulo."
"Magkakaibigan tayo Sab, hindi magkaka-ibigan, remember that."
I sighed and kept quiet. If you only know Paulo he would forever be a part of me. The bell rang, I waited for Paulo to be done para may kasabay ako kumain.
"Sab!"
I was quiet and trying to keep it all inside me. Ayaw ko magsalita, magagalit ako.
"Sab."
"Sab." Paulo's poking me.
I sighed before answering.
"Oh?"
"May gusto ka bang kainin?"
"Wala."
"Inumin?"
"Wala."
"Pero di ka pa kumakain."
"I can eat whenever and whatever I want Ian."
"Pero.."
"Don't feel obliged."
"Sab?"
"Paulo!"
"Oh Sab!"
"Bilisan mo jan, halika na."
I left Ian. It won't be healthy for me and my baby to take chances with his father. Mahirap but I need to accept dahil bago pa man ang lahat, Ian is already like this. Ako lang naman ang nagpapakasira ulong umasa na maiiba ang lahat.
"Bakit ang sama ng tingin ni Ian ha?"
"Ewan ko dun."
"Sab?"
"Kasi niyaya nya ako kumain, tumanggi ako."
Umakbay si Jun sa akin sabay sabing, "Good girl, wag ka gumawa ng ikakasakit mo."
I rolled my eyes, tapos na, nagawa ko na ang ikakasakit na yun and I have to bear it.
Kumakain na kami nila Jun at Paulo nung dumating si Ian.
"Sab, puto pao oh."
"Wow pre, thank you."
"Sandali! Kay Sab yan!"
"Okay lang Ian, ayaw ko. Ibigay mo na lang kila Jun."
"Spaghetti gusto mo?"
"Ayaw."
"Sopas?"
"Okay na ako sa kinakain ko Ian.."
"Milkshake?"
I took a deep breath.
"I told you I'm okay."
"Sab!"
"Guys, una na ako sa classroom. Inaantok ako."
"Sab!"
Patuloy ako sa paglalakad.
