𝔹𝕣𝕠𝕒𝕕𝕎𝕒𝕝𝕜 |Seth B. X Reader|

Chapter #26: Snap Out Of It

Y/N's POV

I woke up on my bathroom floor. The fuck happened? I got up from the floor slowly. My face...? Massacre running down my face. My eyes being red and puffy. My eye bags too. Dark as a stormy night. I look down to see my phone going off like a monster. I pick it up and see 20+ messages and missed calls from Seth. I then remembered what happened. I called my friend Summe of what happened with Alan. She took it so harshly and blamed me for it. Oh how much I just wanted to die at that moment.
I decided to call up and Seth and see how was he doing on the fine night, or morning. I don't even know.
He picked up quickly.

"Y/N, are you okay? I've been trying to call you for the passed two hours!" He exclaims.
"I-I'm sorry. I had a rough night." I said quietly not trying to hurt my voice.
"Do you wanna talk about it at my apartment?" He asks in a soft tired voice.
"Thank you, that would actually help." I stated and hanged up.
I opened the bathroom door and it was bright outside. I walked to my room and grabbed my slides. I didn't even bother to put on my shoes. Once I grabbed my headphones, I headed out my apartment door and immediately went to Seth's apartment. I just wanted to be with him this exact moment.

***

Once I arrived to Seth's apartment. I knocke on the door and there he was standing in front of me.
I quickly wrapped my arms his waist and balled my eyes out.
"Let it all out." H whispered into my ear softly.
"I just wish everything was back to normal again." I cried.
He held me closer to him. I didn't want to let go. His apartment door was still open and thank god no one was walking by us.
"I'm so sorry that I ignored your messages and calls. I was fast asleep and I just to shut everyone out. It didn't do so well and it made me feel worse about myself." I balled and balled.
"Y/N, let's go to my room and we can talk there. I don't want my neighbors to hear what's going on." He joked.
I nodded and smiled.

We sat down on his bed. Seth leaning against his bed frame as I sat in front of him. I took a deep breathe and tried to relax myself.

"I told my old friend Summe on what happened with Alan- a-and she-" I get cut off.
"Take it easy Y/N, just let it all out." He states.
"She blamed Alan's death on me and I felt so bad and I don't even know what's going on anymore and I need time to think- I'm just scared of growing up Seth!" I cried and he wrapped his arms around me. He pulled me onto his chest and I cried. He slowly played with my hair.
"Just listen to my voice. Maybe it can help. We only live once and we have to make memories with our loved ones. Once they've gone, we have thos memories to mourn. We only remember the crumbs that have been left. Not the whole piece. Just remember them if they are still right there in front you smiling." He said.
I pause for a moment.
"Seth, please don't ever leave me. I love you so much. It's just that I'm scared of losing you. You we're there for me when I saw- A-Alan." I choked.
"I will never leave you darling. You were the one piece I was missing in the entire puzzle piece. Remember our first kiss? " He asks.
"Yea?"
"As soon as my lips met yours, I just knew you were the love of my life. I never want to lose you. I will always be by your side or with you." He insisted.
I look up to him. I pull myself up and he cupped my face.
We both leaned in closer and our lips collided. It was slow and steady. However, it felt like a eternity that our lips were smashed together. We moved in sync and my hands found their way to his hair. I played with his hair slowly as we kissed.
We let go slowly. Out foreheads rest against each other.
"I love you so much." I whispered under my breathe.
"I love you too." Seth also whispered.
I never wanted to leave this moment. I buried my face into his neck and as ruffles my hair. He is the love of my life.

***
I woke up to Seth on his phone. I look on the clock on the night stand and it 3:45 AM.
"Seth, how come you are not asleep?" I ask flipping over to see Seth.
"I guess I'm not tired." He replied.
He proceeds to turn off his phone and wrap his arms around waist.
"You seem off, are you okay?" I ask.
"I just want to be with you all my life." Seth whispers.
"You are the light to my dark day. You we're the one who reminded me that hope is still in society. I just hate seeing you in this condition." He silently cried.
"Hey there, I feel the same for you. You reminded that not everyone is a terrible person. Just know that you are the main reason why I'm still here."
He paused for moment. He then pulled me close to his warm body.
"Maybe life isn't so bad." I heard him say.
"Yea, maybe it isn't." I whispered back.

I'm just deeply in love with you.