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Ziam - I'll just Let My Body Explains

Zayn has never had to pretend like this in his entire life. He's never had to act like what he's getting is exactly what he wants. The idea of lying about your needs in bed seemed so ridiculous and a foreign concept to him since the person you were in a relationship with should be the easiest to talk to. That is, until he started dating Liam.

Stupid fucking Liam Payne.

Liam is the sweetest guy he's ever been with. He asks questions and when you answer he looks at you like whatever you're telling him means the world to him. He's so damn compassionate and kind that it makes Zayn's knees a little weak under the gaze of Liam's big brown eyes sometimes.

Liam never oversteps himself, always apologizes even when he does nothing wrong, and is quick to give Zayn all the attention he wants plus more. But the kind of attention Zayn needs, he's not getting and he has no clue how to go about asking.

Zayn has a lot of pride. His mum had told him that too much pride in a person can lead to a life unfulfilled but Zayn never understood that saying until now. He has always relied on his intuitive nature and impeccable instinct when going about getting what he wants. He's never had to ask for much in relationships because the person he was with had always been quick to understand without much talk and quick to give.

Zayn's kind of floundering because even though he knows Liam would give him anything he asks for, he has no clue how to go about telling Liam that he wants to be wrecked.

When they're in bed, Liam is all soft touches and tender kisses. He'll skim his nails over the sensitive skin of Zayn's belly and wait until he shivers all over, and then Liam will just giggle into the crook of his neck and place open mouthed kisses on his collarbones — all these beautiful praises mumbled into his skin like Liam is trying to get them to stick on him permanently like his tattoos. Zayn likes it, he sometimes feels like he doesn't deserve that kind of attention, that unconditional love Liam will unabashedly give to him, but he'll take it all nonetheless. He just wishes that Liam's lovesick words would come with the scrape of his teeth down the column of his neck or his hands grabbing possessively at his thighs.

The thing about the whole situation that really gets Zayn about ready to go absolutely mad is the fact that Liam will give it to him every once in a while. Liam's been bulking up over the past year and he hasn't quite gotten a handle on understanding his own strength. He'll push at Zayn roughly sending him halfway up the bed without meaning to. Zayn will always catch himself against the headboard and smirk at Liam while he blushes so prettily and bites at his lips.

Sometimes Liam's big hands will grab at him, palms on his bum that will squeeze until there's nail marks left, little bright red crescents on his skin. There was one glorious time when Liam got a good hand full of his hair and just pulled him back flush against his chest. Zayn came so hard that he blacked out for about a minute.

But it will all end too soon because Liam will be right by his side seconds later, cuddling him close, whispering apologies and patting at any bruised skin. Zayn'll tell him that it's okay, it's fine, but Liam will keep saying sorry and the only way for Zayn to get him to stop is to push him back against the bed and kiss him, get his tongue in his mouth so he can shut the fuck up about it.

Liam treats him like some sort of fragile piece of dishware and it's pissing him off. These days, when they're with the rest of the lads, Liam is often right up there with Louis when it comes to roughhousing and wrestling. Liam will roll around on stage with Harry in the middle of a damn concert, and Harry will always walk away from the scuffle with a new bruise, and Liam won't even bat an eyelash about it — but when Harry picks Zayn up bridal style while they're goofing around during soundcheck the day after, Liam will police his every move until he sets Zayn down.