Tough Love

*Chapter 8*

I heard the door slam shut leaving me still as a board. Tears running down my flustered cheeks, small bulbs on my forehead. My throat is raspy from the screaming. I was shivering from being cold and scared that no one would come and help me. I've been hurt many times but never like this. I had my first panic attack in years and I will stay silent about what just happened. I then hear the door open and see Aj walk in with Cedric.

"Lilly! What the heck happened?" I heard aj ask but I just stayed silent. I felt Cedric help me sit up and wrap a blanket around me. I couldn't bring myself to look at them as I flinched when Cedric helped me. I got up and got dressed and left. I couldn't face them or anyone right now.

I went back to the slytherin common room and straight to my dorm. I grabbed my wand and phone. I saw Snape walk in but didn't say anything. I couldn't even bring myself to look at him.

"Lilly, what's wrong?" Snape asked me. I couldn't bring myself to answer and walked out of the dorm and the common room. I didn't know where I was going because I had my eyes closed so no one could see my tears. I finally stopped running and opened my eyes to see where I was and saw I was at Dumbledore's office door. I knocked still shaking from fear but then the door opened and I saw professor mcGonagall looking at me and I instantly wiped my tears.

"What do you need?" Prof. Mcgonagall asked me. "I n-need t-to t-talk t-to professor Dumbledore." I stuttered while trying not to cry. Prof. McGonagall let me in and walked me to a chair where I could sit. I looked at Dumbledore since it's rude not to. "Can I go back to Beauxbatons?" I asked while fidgeting with my fingers.

"Sure. But I need a reason why," Dumbledore answered but he didn't sound mad about it and got up from his desk and walked over to me and pulled a chair so he could sit in front of me which made me flinch. I could tell both the professors noticed I flinched as they both looked worried about me.

"I j-just m-miss m-m-my f-f-frineds there." I stuttered trying to lie to them. I couldn't tell them the truth.

"Lilly, are you sure that there is nothing else to it?" I looked at mcGonagall kinda shocked she asked me that and I nodded, not being able to bring myself to talk and my throat still hurt from screaming and crying.

"Just f-forg-get I-I a-asked." I stuttered as I tried to leave but I felt someone grab my arm and I flinched worse than I did before.

"Lilly it's ok to cry and not be ok in front of us." prof. Mcgonagall whispered in my ear and I felt tears roll down my cheeks as I was pulled into a comforting hug. I then heard the door open and looked up and saw snape and lupin. I finally looked at Snape and ran to him and hugged him.

"Lilly, can you please tell us what happened? We won't make you." Snape told me but he spoke softly and I wanted to tell them but I couldn't. I don't like other people getting in trouble because of me and I probably deserved being raped.