A Hiraeth Dilemma (T.R.A.V.E.L SERIES # 3)

Chapter 32

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I heard his footsteps on my side. I don't know if he saw me or not but he's not near me so it's either he didn't see me or he really don't care.

Ellie, c'mon, stop it. Hindi naman pwedeng ganito.

Nang wala nang marinig na yapak ay nagpunas ako ng luha bago tumayo.

I was about to go to my room but the moment I looked at my back, I saw him, he's holding a glass of water while looking at me.

He looks like he's surveying my face right now so I looked away and went to my room.

I was so near the door of my room when he suddenly pulled my wrist. Nanlaki ang mata ko at napaikot paharap sakanya.

"Why are you crying?" Seryoso ang boses nito habang pinagmamasdan ang mukha ko.

I looked away and didn't answer. Why would I tell him? Anong sasabihin ko, umiiyak ako kasi nasasaktan ako sa mga pinaggagagawa niya?

Para naman akong tanga non? Why would I do that.

Parang tuloy ay gusto ko pang sisihin siya kasi nasasaktan ako. Hindi niya naman iyon kasalanan, it's my fault.

I'm the only one responsible for my feelings to him, not him.

This is also why I'm giving up because I don't want him to be burdened by it. He's clearly moved on from us and I really should do the same instead of forcing the past to happen again in the future.

"Ellie…" Banta nito.

"None of your business." Malamig kong sabi dito.

Napatiim bagang siya while still looking at me.

"If this is about ear—" I cutted him off.

"Stop assuming things Aziel. I'm crying because of something else." Inis na sabi ko.

Umangat ang gilid ng labi niya dahil sa sinabi ko. He looked amused too.

"Hmm?" Napangisi ito. "Hindi mo ko pinatapos sa pagsasalita but you already know what I'm talking about."

Natigilan ako dahil sa sinabi niya but when I realized it's not specific, I looked at him sharply.

"You're dropping a reason, whatever you say, I'm still gonna deny it because it's not true. Hindi mo alam bakit ako umiiyak." Matalim ang tingin ko sakanya. His brows raised.

"Then you're really crying." He concluded kaya napairap ako.

"Kita mo naman na, sasabihin pa." Inis na sabi ko at hinila ang kamay pero hindi niya iyon binitawan.

Instead, he pulled it making me closer to him. Natigilan ako dahil sa lapit namin, I also stared at his face pero nang matauhan ay napaiwas ako ng tingin.

"What's with your attitude?" His eyes are full of humor while asking that.

"What?" Pagsusungit ko dito.

Mabuti nalang at natural na masungit ako, it's easier to hide what I'm feeling by trying to piss him.

"I thought you're asking for a chance? Bakit ganyan ka umakto?" Natigilan ako sa sinabi niya.

I never thought he'd open up about it. Alam niya naman pala so why not say anything about it noon pa?

Kung kailan ayoko nang gumawa ng aksyon!

"Who said I am?" Hamon ko dito. Mukhang siya naman ang natigilan at napatitig sakin ng seryoso.

I can't believe hindi pa rin ako nangangalay, kanina pa ako nakatingala sakanya and our face are close. Like two inches apart.