This is 𝗠𝗲 ~ Trans!Ranboo (Ftm)

21 .⠀⠀ a beautiful day︐☆.

HEY YALL ITS AUTHOR COMIN AT YA WITH ANOTHER CHAPTER!! I was trying to think weither this chapter would be Angst or fluff

I chose the obvious one and I chose Angst :)
Will you guys ever get a break? Probably. Will it be soon? No idea L

Anyway! Grab ya knives, we got 3 more characters. Here's some for those who dont have any 🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🗡🗡🗡🗡🗡🗡🗡🗡⚔⚔⚔⚔⚔ and this is after Tubbo woke up and got released.

TW; forced drinking(alcohol), toxic friends, disorientation, unperscribed pills, Self-harm, Body dysphoria, mentioned suicide, intrusive thoughts, suicidal thoughts, needles and probably more. This chapter is alot :)

Enjoyy~

Ranboo had made some friends at school. Their names are Alex, Tyler, and Trey. They didnt know he was trans, and he kept it on the down low. He was hanging out with them after school. Ranboo had forgot to tell Schlatt that he was out, it never crossed his mind. It didnt help that his phone died.

Ranboo was at the park with his friends, just chilling really. "Hey Ranboo! Guys! Guess what I got~!" Another one of his friends called, running over. He was holding a Ziploc bag. The attention turned to him. Ranboo looked at the bag and his belly flipped at what was inside. It was 4 little vials of alcohol

"What is it??" One of his friends asked. "Its fuckin drugs!" The one with the bag whispered. "U-um- I gotta go. My dads probably worried-" Ranboo started and began to back up, but he was stopped by one of them. "Oh come on Ranboo!~ dont be a pussy and take some with us!" Trey said, nudging Ranboo with his elbow. "No thank-" he was cut off. "Dont you care about us?" Alex frowned.

"I-I do-" Ranboo looked at them, panicked. "Then take it with us!" Tyler said. "Uhm.. n-no I gotta go-" Ranboo said, backing up more before running. He was rather fast, but his binder cut of most of the oxygen from going into his lungs. He coughed and looked behind him. The 3 boys were chasing him. Ranboo's lungs screamed at him so he stopped running. They caught up to him pretty quickly and dragged Ranboo into an alley between two shops.

"Nono- guys I dont any-" Ranboo tries to say, but Tyler put a hand over Ranboo's mouth before he could say anything else. He tried to get out of their grip, but his ribs screamed at him. Tyler's hand moved for a second and Alex poured an entire vial of alcohol into Ranboo's mouth and Tyler's hand moved back to cover Ranboo's mouth and nose. "Swallow it and well let you go!" Trey laughed.

Ranboo closed his eyes and swallowed hard and the hand was removed from his mouth. Ranboo coughed, his throat burning. The taste stung his mouth and throat. The three laughed at Ranboo's struggle for air, leaving. Tears rolled down his cheeks in a constant loop. The binder didnt help either..

When the air finally returned, he looked around. Everything was blurred and looked fake. Ranboo stumbled up and leaned against the wall. The alley seemed to be narrowing, the two walls looked like they were moving together. Ranboo hurried out of the alley and tripped. He stumbled out into the road. He groaned and coughed more.

Ranboo heard a car honk at him and he stumbled up and fell over on the sidewalk. Everything was so loud. He closed his eyes and attempted to get up. He managed to get to his feet, and with the help of anything close by, he started to walk home. his head rang. Ranboo's hands, elbows and knees were scraped from falling. When he got home, Schlatt waited. He looked pissed. "Ranboo. Where the hell where you!?" Schlatt snapped. "Wha..-?" Everythings so bright. What did Schlatt say?? Everything was so loud. "Are you drunk??" Schlatt asked, looking at Ranboo.

"Nno?" Ranboo managed to get out. "I donn know-" his words slurred together. He let out a cough and winced at the pain in his ribs. "Jesus christ.. mkay-"

_____time skip bc I dont feel like writing anymore drunkboo_____

When he woke up, his head hurt so much. Ranboo groaned and looked around he was on his bed. On the small dresser next to his bed was a glass of water and a few pain killers. There was a small note next to them 'Hey bud! Here's some things to help you with your hangover. You can stay home from school today, but I expect an explanation when I get home :) -dad'

Ranboo signed and took the pain killers, following it with water to help swallow them. He sat up and walked to his bathroom. He took off his binder last night and he sighed again. Just a girl playing pretend~ Ranboo's thoughts mocked him. He looked at his face in the mirror. His jaw was too soft. His hair was so long.. He needed to cut his hair. I need to carve my face until im satisfied Ranboo thought. 

He looked over at the counters and saw his Scissors. Why were they in the bathroom? thats a question for everyone.. Ranboo grabbed them and without a thorough plan, started to cut his hair until it looked right. Until he looked like a boy again. He threw the scissors down when he was done and looked at himself in the mirror again. Better. but not enough. He frowned and grabbed his razor. Ranboo took a deep breath and started to slash at his wrists.

He cut blindly, not caring where. A few where on his face. Soon, the red cuts' colors drained and turned white. Ranboo smiled and continued until he had nowhere else that wasn't cut at least once. Once done, he looked at himself in the mirror and stared in shock. Panicked, ranboo started to clean the cuts and try to stop the bleeding. He looked at the cuts on his face. He simply put a few Band-Aids on them and sighed. Ranboo heard the front door and his heart dropped.

It was Schlatt.

Oh shit- Ranboo's thoughts filled with 'Schlatt's going to find out.'  Ranboo put a long sleeved black shirt on and sighed. It stung.. he walked out of the bathroom and into his room. Schlatt wanted to know what happened last night. His head hurt so much. He was slightly glad he remembered what happened. But he didnt want to get the others in trouble..

Was it really worth it?? If Schlatt told them off, then they'd come to Ranboo and do something to him. But if he didnt, he would keep being forced to take alcohol. Or he could lie..

But he couldn't lie to schlatt...

Could he?

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IM SO SORRY FOR THE EXTREMELY LATE CHAPTER SCHOOL HAS BEEN UP MY ASS LATELY HOPE YOU ENJOYED AND SHIT BYEE ILY ALL MAKE SURE TO EAT SOMETHING AND HYDRATE

HYDRATE OR DIE STRAIGHT)