Until Forever Falls Apart (Lumax)

Chapter 3

(Max POV)

1:30 pm. Also known as the time I have to go and see my therapist Ms. Kelly. If I'm being honest she isn't the worst, but she continuously try's to pry for information she knows she's never gonna get from me.
Exiting my English class I forced my way through the sea of people. Looking down to my music player I clicked in a new tape and adjusted my headphones. Focusing in on the lyrics and melody of the song I realized that Every Breath You Take by The Police came on. My heart fluttered in remembrance of how this was the song that played at the snow ball when times were better. It was also the time I had my first kiss... with Lucas.

(Past)

"Oh Mom that hurts" I say ripping my head away from my moms hurtful hands.
"It's going to be worth it, I promise" she said finishes my hair and bringing my hair forward onto the front of my shoulder. "You look amazing my darling" ignoring her last statement I glanced through the door of my room seeing Billy walking past. He stopped slightly and looked over at me as we locked eyes. We haven't spoken since the night where he almost killed Lucas and then I almost killed him. Regret filled my body as I gave him a look of sorrow. He returned the same look in his eyes before he walked away
    "You ready to go honey?" My mom said snapping me out of my thoughts
    "Yeah yeah I'll meet you in the car" I said frantically walking over to my shoes and slipping them on my feet. 

    Entering the snow ball I could feel the tension that spread through the room. I looked around for the Party wondering if they were even here yet. As I was about to give up I spotted a fluffy hair boy walking to a nearby table, I soon realized that it was Dustin and I followed in his footsteps.
    "Holy shit what happened to you!" I heard Lucas say as I walked to his side. He turned his head in confusion before his eyes lit up when our eyes met
    "What do you mean what happened?" Dustin said confused
   "What do you mean what?"
    "Dude your hair!" I said walking closer to Dustin
    "Is there a bird nesting in there?" Lucas said reaching up trying to touch it but Dustin slapped his hand away
     "There is no bird nesting in there you assholes I worked hard!" Dustin retorted annoyed before jumping a bit as the song 'Time after Time' started to play. Looking around kids starting pairing up and slow dancing.
   
    "Max. Hey" Lucas said with an awkward smile on his face. "It's nice right? Uh-umm, you want to umm...You want to like... you know? Like just you and me?" Lucas continued to stumble with his words. My heart beat began to flutter in excitement
    "Are you asking me to dance, stalker?" I sassed at him with a smile on my face
    "No, of course not! Unless you want to?" He said with hesitation causing me to chuckle in response.
    "So smooth" I responded reaching over and grabbing his hand "Come on"  I finished pulling his arm as I dragged us through the crowd of kids and stopping in an open stopping and placing my arms around his neck as he softly settled his hands on my waist.

    We continued to sway to the music when the song changed to 'Every Breath You Take'. Our eyes stayed on one another the entire time as the beat started to drop. In the distance I looked over and saw that El and Mike made it out to the dance floor. Looking back at Lucas. I don't know what came over me but I had the urge to kiss him. And that's exactly what I did. Looking from his eyes to his lips I slowly leaned in and kiss him gently. Pulling away His face was in awe as he was still processing what just happened. I gave him a huge smile in response and settled my arms more comfortably on his shoulders as I leaned onto him more.
  

(Present)

    Tears brimmed my eyes as the song came to a finish and the memories that came with it ended as well. I sometimes wish that I could have just stayed in that moment in a time loop. I wish that I would have ran to Billy and given him a hug or ask him how I looked. But no none of that happened and instead I just looked away from Billy and time continued to move forward. As I neared Ms. Kelly's room I quickly wiped the brimming tears and slowly opened her door

    "Welcome Max" she said with a smile "Please sit" she continued as she patted toward the seat in-front of her. Nodding in response I shrugged my backpack off my shoulders and sat down in the seat in front of her
    "So how have you been doing since our last session" she asked grabbing her founder which I assumed carried all my information about my past traumas
    "I'm fine I guess. I just keep getting these major headaches and a few occasional nose bleeds" I said opening up to her a bit.
    "Im sure those are both just being caused from all this stress you have been under lately" she says as if she knows what it feels like to live my life "Now how is your home life been going Max?" She continued
    "Same as last time" I said. Her eyes started to bore into me, like they usually do, which means that she wants me to elaborate. "Moms been coming home late and then grabbing a drink and then passing out on the couch" I finally open up a bit
    "And how do you feel about all of that?" She questioned as she started writing notes down
    "I don't know. I just wish things were how they used to be... when my brother was around" I said mumbling the last part. I never open up to her this much but I knew the more stuff she thought she was getting from me the faster I would be done with her
    "Max, it's ok to express these emotions of sorrow you have been feeling it's better to show them rather than bottle them up" she said for the millionth time.
    "Yeah I know"

    After our hour session I abruptly grabbed my things and headed to my last class of the day. Like I said before therapy isn't the worst until it becomes the worst. And I guess it helps, a little, but at the end of the day nothing will change because of it.