The Assassin's Weakness✔️

41. Therapy

"Okay, tell her how you felt."

"Uhm, I was hurt, I was angry at you for hurting me, for destroying us but I hated myself for not knowing how to hate you. How could I hate you when Khanyi looks exactly like you, hating you felt like hating her and that felt like hating myself, you made me hate myself." He says looking at the ceiling

"I am sorry I made you feel that way." She shakes her head

"Acknowledge how you made him feel."

"I am sorry I made you hate yourself, I should have never done that, I am sorry I destroyed what we had built."

"Do you recognise the guilt that overwhelms her?" He nods "It should not affect how you feel because you did not cause it but you should be able to empathise and see how this situation has broken both of you. What are you looking to gain from this?"

"We want..."

"Let's use "I" statements."

"Oh, uhm, I want him to be able to trust me."

"Kaiser?"

"I want to rebuild our relationship."

"Kamo why is it important that he trust you?"

"Our relationship depends on trust and I think it can only thrive if he knows that he can trust me."

"Kai, why is it important to rebuild your relationship?"

"I love her, there is no one I want to spend my life with other than her." It felt great to hear that.

"This is for both of you, what do you think your relationship lacks."

"Trust, communication, consideration."

"Comprehension and understanding." He answers

"Kai, why did you not say trust?"

"Because I trust her, it is not the same as before but I still trust her. I don't know if it is because I understand why she did what she did or because I thought about the situation to the point of obsession but if there is someone I would put my faith in, it's her."

"Kamo?" I shake my head "Okay, Kai, why comprehension and understanding?"

"This entire mistake, she made, could have been avoided had she taken the time to understand that sometimes I forget my phone in my car and that sometimes I forget to tell her things in advance, it happens, not that often but it does. When we are in arguments, it is as though she does not comprehend what I am asking of her. It is as though she always wants the last word and is waiting to respond."

"I expected too much from you, I did not take the time to understand why you do certain things. I will work on understanding you more and learning to listen and not just hear." He nods.

"Now Kamo, why trust, communication and consideration."

"Uhm, I feel as though we will never be the same but we can only move forward if he can put his trust in me. He is right, this whole thing could have been avoided, I expected him to always update me on where he is and what he is doing and communicate that with me, a hey, I am going into the mall, won't hurt because I can understand that he left his phone in the car. I feel as though he does not consider my feelings and how worried I get about him."

"I know how you get, Kamo, I just forget how far your overthinking can go and I understand that I need to work on my communication skills."

"That's good. How is the intimacy?"

"Uhm..."

"We have not been intimate in nearly a year."

"Homework for next week, try to see how it feels to be in each other's space. Anything you want to talk about?" We shake our heads "how I wish all sessions were like this. If that is all, you are free to go, remember to listen to understand and comprehend." We nod before going out.

We get home and the babysitter is feeding her. We hired one because it is just more convenient to have one.

When Thati left, Khanyi wanted to watch Moana, I hate Kai for showing it to her. She is sitting directly in front of the TV in my room. Kai and I are on my bed.

"Uhm I thought you did not trust me at all."

"At first I didn't but I knew you had no malintent so I let go of the idea that you would hurt me again because even if you did, you are the only person I want to be hurt by."

"I never want to hurt you again."

"Then don't." I turn to look at him and he is already looking at me.

"Shhhh!" Khanyi screams from the floor, laughter erupts between us

"She acts like she can't watch downstairs." He chuckles while we watch with her. When the movie is done she comes and sits between us.

"Mama, we watch fogs!" I look to Kai

"Princess and the frog." He puts it on.

"That's mama's favourite movie." She sits on my lap and leans on my chest. "You used to be so little."

The movie began and we all watched Princess and the frog, Khanyi and I singing the songs and Kai just watching us. For the first time, we felt like a family and I saw a glimpse of what we were working towards.

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Look at that progress

Trust me, you are in for a bumpy ride from here

Enjoy❤