I winced as I sat up in bed, shaking. The sweat on the back of my nightgown stuck to the gory lacerations on my back, and I felt the need to run. Far far away from this house of Hades. To someplace new. Different. But Freya, I thought, today is the day you can leave this all behind. Leave your pathetic excuse for a father to wallow in his own misery. No! A voice said. You're to weak to belong anywhere except Abnegation. You'll never amount to anything. I pushed the thoughts out of my head and peered out of the simple square window. Peering out at the sun rising over the horizon, I thought of Tobias. He was no doubt outrunning trains and jumping off skyscrapers. The real question was if I really wanted to see Tobias. The past two years have been a hell on earth for me, and I can't help but blame him for it. My thoughts then turned to my mother. Beautiful Evelyn. I was so young, just a little girl when she died. Part of me wanted to believe that she was out there somewhere, waiting forever to find her. But I knew that was impossible.
I got out of bed and limped to the bathroom, still feeling a bit disoriented from the night before. I cleaned my teeth and then got into the shower. Cold as usual. What am I going to choose? At this point there were really two distinct choices: stay in Abnegation in the familiar atmosphere that I have always known, or follow my brother to Dauntless. To a new world filled with uncertainty and surprises. My father, I mean, Marcus, (he surely does not deserve to be called my father) will be announcing at the ceremony tonight. Oh how I would feel to stare into his cold, lifeless eyes as I squeezed my hand over the coals, hearing the sizzle echo throughout the room. He would no longer be able to control me then.
Once I had gotten out and dried myself off, I picked out one of the same boring dresses that I have worn every day of my miserable life. Putting my hair up, into a bun, I decided to look in the mirror just this once. It was the last day of being in Abnegation anyway. All that I saw staring back at me was a broken, abused, and useless teenage girl. I wasn't particularly pretty. At least, I don't think I had any features that stood out. And the dark circles and bloodshot eyes didn't really help. I like to think that I look like my mother, though. Perhaps I will be reminded of her whenever I look in the mirror in my new life.
I closed the panel that covered the mirror and went downstairs, to find my father sitting in the familiar armchair.
"Good morning, sir." I greeted him with a little bow. It killed me inside to be afraid of him just as a cowardly dog would. You'll show him Freya, you'll show that monster.
"I trust that you'll make the right choice today." He said, void of all emotion.
"Yes, sir." I replied as I was about to make some oatmeal.
"Come give me a hug." He said, and his voice rang through the silence.
Confused, but terrified of what would happen if I disobeyed him, I walked over to him and he embraced me almost gently. I didn't feel any life or love in his body. I wasn't even sure if he was even capable of truly loving someone. Just as I dared to pull away, his rough and worn hands were clasped tightly around me neck. His face was a mix of rage and excitement. At first I thought that if I just stayed still, he would stop and tell me something like, "This is for your own good," but he didn't. I had to fight back for my own life. I lifted up my leg and kicked him in the groin area, and he released his grip and cried out in pain.
"I hope you burn in hell." I told him, and ran out the door.
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Freya Eaton- "Four's" Sister
FanfictionFreya eaton was just 14 years old when it was time for her older brothers Choosing Ceremony. she was terrified when she watched her brothers blood drip onto the sizzling dauntless coal. she knew her brother was gone. who would protect her now? ...