𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐑 𝟒 // matt sturniolo SLOW UPDATES

35- anger in a notebook

4 months before:

lorelai was sitting in her bed in the hotel room she shares with isaiah and nick, angered more than ever.

2 mornings ago. matt told her that kissing her was a mistake. a mistake.

at first she acted like it didn't effect her, and then she had her sad phase, and now she is entering the anger phase.

how could he do that? how could HE kiss me and then tell me it was a mistake.

all those times i spent, crushing my feelings for him so we could maintain a healthy friendship. i practically destroyed myself and my mental health so we could keep being friends.

one of the main reasons i started starving myself was because i wanted to make him like me. not that that it's his fault but he definitely played a part.

i'm not even mad about that.

i'm mad about the fact that after months and months of flirting, he kisses me and straight up tells me that it was a mistake. that i was a mistake.

lorelai was feeling very irrational and wanted to scream about it in her journal. so she did.

but because of how mad she was, she definitely overreacted in her lyrics.

calling matt a variety of shitty names, basically making stories up, pulling shit right out of her asscrack.

after a few days, she got over the anger and went back to not caring and loving matt.

it's one of the reasons she didn't make a big deal about his apology later on. she remembered those shitty songs she wrote about him and felt guilty.

lorelai threw the book into her backpack and never wanted to look at it again.

liz speaks!
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7/8/22