THATS SO 80s - Steve Harrington

Chapter Thirty-Seven

Chapter Thirty-Seven

It had probably been hours since we had been sitting in Mike's basement and I was bored out of my mind. I had looked at every corner of this room, and I felt a little spazzed. Like I had to do something with my life. I didn't come to Hawkins for Spring break just to save the world, I thought I could mend me and Steve's relationship.

But no, Hawkins had to be a bitch about it and turn it around the other way. I can never get my way, can I?

I kept making noises, moaning and groaning like a child. "Juno, are you ten?" Steve asked, getting annoyed with my habits.

"I'm sorry, I'm ADHD I need to do something!" My hands were literally twitching as I showed him. "I—I'm booking a flight home."

"What?" Lucas asked, giving me an annoyed look. "You're backing out?"

"I'm not... I'm not backing out. I just don't feel like saving the world again." I shrugged. "Call me selfish, or whatever, but I'm 18, shouldn't the fucking military do this shit?"

"Juno, you're not leaving." Steve gives me a look and I pressed my lips tightly together.

"Well, I don't wanna stay. I moved Cali for a reason." I huffed out and crossed my arms like a child.

"Juno, don't be a pussy," Dustin snapped and I gapped at him. "I'm sorry, just... Don't leave us when we need you at a time like this, okay?"

"Fine. Whatever. I'll sacrifice myself to this Vecna man so I don't have to put up with this shit anymore." I grumbled to myself, feeling a slight panic coming along. God, everytime some shit happens in this town, I always feel like I'm going to have a panic attack.

"That's the attitude." Dustin sarcastically said and Steve waved him off, telling him too cool it.

"Just let me talk to her, guys. You're not helping." Steve tells them. "Juno, come here." He grabs my hands and lead me to the bathroom downstairs. He closed the door and turned to me. "What's up?"

"What's up?" I hissed at him. "What's up is I didn't come to fucking Hawkins to be thrown another problem! Yes, I may be acting like a complete bitch right now, but I don't care. This isn't how I wanted it to be. I had it planned out. None of this was on my fucking rada!"

"Okay, okay, just lets stay calm, okay?" Steve tells me in a calm voice and I took in a deep breath, trying to relax. "I can tell your stressed out right now—"

"What gave it away?" I muttered sarcastically, pressing my back against the cold hard concrete.

"Juno." Steve gave me a tone which I didn't like. I slumped down to the floor and Steve followed me carefully. I pulled my knees to my forehead and rested my forehead on my knees, squeezing my eyes tight.

"I'm sorry," I whispered shakily. "I don't know how to handle this. Not on my own."

"But you're not on your own, Jun." Steve sweetly told me.

"No, you don't understand." I looked up at him and he tucks some hair behind my ear gently.

"Then make me understand." He whispered softly.

I sighed. "I just... Coming back to Hawkins meant a great deal to me. I was feeling all emotions at once for the last 6 months. Excited, scared, and sick to my stomach. Coming back to a place where I experienced trauma. Steve, I'm not going to lie, not having you by my side made me feel home sick. I haven't been sleeping properly and... And barely eating."

"Why didn't you tell me any of this?" Steve asked, sadness in his eyes.

"Because we never talked, Steve. Not once." I held out my finger. "Within the 6 months I was gone. And I get that was my fault, for breaking up with you. I know, silly me. It turns I needed you more than I think. You make me feel sane in this fucking world."