How Do We Live?

Chapter 30: Recovery

"Rahim..." Hindi ko napigilang mapasinghap nang maramdaman ang pag-hagod ng kamay niya sa likod ko. I can feel his breath on my neck as both of my cheeks flush because of the sudden turn of events!

What the hell did he just said? Did he? Oh my god!

"Can I use your bathroom?" Mahina niyang bulong sa leeg ko. Hindi ko napigilan mapakagat sa pang-ibabang labi dahil sa naging tanong niya.

Is he going to? You know... let it out?

Jesus, Monique!!! What am I even imagining!?

"Sure. Do you need... some help--"

"No, no. Fuck, Mon don't suggest such thing, please." Natataranta niyang putol sa akin bago ako pakawalan sa isang yakap at hinanap ang mga mata ko. He clenches his jaw when our eyes met kaya naman hindi ko na napigilan ang paglinya ng mga labi when I saw his face.

His face is a bit red, especially his ears. Ang salamin niya'y nasa tungki na ng ilong while his long hair is now messy, very far from the ever compose Rahim that he always is.

"I'll just use the bathroom then I'll head home." He said with finality in his tone as he diverts his gaze away from me, tila ba kapag tinignan niya ako ay mapapatid na ang natitirang pasensyang meron siya sa nangyayari.

He was about to step back and let go of me pero  agad kong hinawakan ang braso niya para pigilan siya. I couldn't help but gulp when his dark blue eyes look at my hand at his arm on my side. The way I catch how he slowly licks his lower lips lit something in me kaya agad akong nag iwas ng tingin mula roon.

"You're going home after?" Hindi alintana ang hiya ay agad ko iyong tinanong sa kanya. His thick brows furrow at my questions kaya naman doon na ako tinamaan ng kakaonting delikadeza. I just... well... want him to stay for a while.

"Mon, please. If I stay here, I can't hold back." Tila nagmamakaawang saad niya sa akin. Inayos ang salamin at marahang kinamot ang tungki ng ilong bago tapatan ang mga titig ko.

When I met his eyes, I already knew that he's just holding himself so much that the desire reflects in his dark sky eyes. Those dark orbs lit with a hint of fire in them, as if a little more push and he will devour me without any second thoughts.

I unconsciously turn my gaze down, but his hands found my neck and held up my head immediately. I found him clenching his jaw as his eyes' intensity double because of what I did.

I felt so hot when I realized what he just did! His hands... his hands are on my neck, not to tight though. But just picturing our position now as I gaze upon his eyes looking down on me with those lustful eyes... I-I just... feel so weak... on my knees.

God! I feel like a teenager with a decade of pent-up sexual desires! Kulang na lang ay sambahin ko ang lalaking ito sa harapan ko matapos niya akong ambunan ng konting halik!

"Eyes up here, Monique! Stop teasing me!!!" He roared through gritted teeth, holding back at me as if I did something bad!

Nang hindi ako sumagot sa kanya ay naramdaman kong marahang humigpit ang pagkakahawak niya sa leeg ko. Agad naman niyang inilihis ang titig sa akin at bumigkas pa ng iilang mura bago ako bitawan.

He slowly let go of my neck and rests both of his arms on my side, leaning on the marble kitchen top and encaging me on his arms. Ipinatong ang ulo sa aking balikat bago nagpakawala ng isang malalim na buntong hininga. I place my one hand on the top of his chest to push him a little to create a space between us.

"Just... I don't want to rush you. I've waited for a decade, taking this slow is nothing to me, Mon." he whispers as if pleading me to stop testing his patience. What he said sounded like a lie base on what he looks like now. Konting kibot ko na lang yata ay putol na lahat ng pagpipigil niya.