Illusions of the heart

37: Zoey

I have no idea how long I've been trapped here. What day it is? How late it is? I can, however, still remember everything. Every kiss. Every moment. Every touch. It's like their faces are burned into the corners of my mind. Guess that I'm being punished for letting them all down. Jimi's smile is playing hide and go seek in the shadows of my head. I can remember all seven brothers in perfect details. Seven different smiles. Different pairs of chocolate colored eyes. Faces with and without dimples. I miss them all. I don't care anymore. They might have been my biological mother's sisters, but their nothing of me. They can do with me as they please. Feed me to the waves. I don't deserve to live, not after killing the rainbow. I feel cold and hurt. I don't care anymore! I don't! Feet crept closer. The gravel shifted beneath their weight. What do they want now? Is it already time to drown me in the ocean's boisterous cries? At least, I won't feel week and pathetic. I've forgotten how hungry and thirsty I am, hours ago. I can't get any colder than I already am. Below freezing point. If I say that I'm not afraid, then I will be unfaithful. I closed my eyes at the thought, as the steps inched closer and closer. Tears  staining my cheeks as reality struck me like a cold dagger to the stomach. I don't want to die, but I am doing this for you Jimi. The steps came to an halt. Stopping right in front of me. I cringed inwardly. Waiting for the gut punch. Maybe another bucket of icy cold water. Nada! Instead a thumb wiped my tears away. I opened my eyes in shock. "Jimi?" I questioned in utter dismay. He gave me a sympathetic smile. I wanted to ask, how this could even be remotely possible, but the words stuck to my throat like an invincible barrier.

My hands were cut loose. How? Am I illusionating? He hadn't even moved. He's not alone! Jk moved into view. He gave me a wide smile. I stood up, but my lack of stability made my knees buckle. Jimi picked me up bridal style. "Thanks," he said with a warm eye smile. He must be thanking me for saving his life. How can he still be alive? I haven't sealed it with Jk. As we inched closer towards the caves exit, the moon's blue radiant shines in through the cave's open mouth. "Jimin! I need your help over here," a voice called out. Suga? He came too! Instead of putting me down, he handed me over towards Jungkook. He smiled down at me. I fell deeper into his intense gaze, as if he's calling me. He arched his neck and connected his lips with mine. A powerful display of fireworks erupted within me. The moon bathed us in her blue beams. Trapped within a tornado of light, as blue and white twirls around us. We pulled away. Who is he? Where am I? He seems to be just as confuse as I am feeling. "Come on, Jungkook. We have to go, now!" Suga called from the other side. When we reached them, he put me down. Why can't I stand on my own? What's going on? What happened? How come I can't remember anything? I tumbled over my own two feet, but the red head were quick to help. Am I supposed to know him? Nonetheless, I thanked him wholeheartedly. "Come on, let's get you home," Suga said as he picked me up. I looked around at my surroundings. Apparently all war broke loose. Suga looked down at me a confused expression noticeable on his features. What's wrong with him? Doesn't he remember me? Every kiss. Every touch. Every cuddle. Every moment. Don't he remember? Somewhere along the line I must have drifted off, because when I came to, I were laying in my room at his house. My wrists bandaged.