Eternal Desires(On Hold)

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People often described depression as an extreme unexplained sadness but for ummi she believes depression is when you happen to loss interest in everything you once loved, having to watch yourself painfully hurting and your silence hurting the people surrounding you and there's nothing you can do about it, ever since the incident at her parents she find herself withdrawn, Abbah didn't call anyone, it's like he disappear into thin air, every day she sees herself Lossing interest in the things she love doing the most, she could feel the pain inside her heart and all she could do sometimes is cry, her responsiblity as a wife and  mother crumble down leaving jalal to deal with everything,
There are days where she could see how exhausted he's been especially with little Amir tantrums and him having to handle the big kitchen business he's about starting, despite all that he's always been by at her side creating as much time as he can to make sure she's ok.

"Ummi!"jalal voice call snapping her out of her thought as she hears the heavy cry of her son, she sigh and continue sitting where's she is as jalal sprint up the stairs making her to sigh.

Regardless whatever happened her mum still choose to leave, she left to her parents house and 2days ago she took the flight to the UK where her grandparents live, when ummi visit two days ago she saw how broken her dad was, he's become a shadow of himself, the once lively man look withdrawn and empty of emotions,
  He met with firdaus mother previously and they have agreed to take a DNA test, it's obvious the matter have reach the internet especially with the bindawa's dragged into the matter.

"Sorry."jalal say swaying the little boy as he walk down the stairs, he glance at ummi who's sitting on the dinning table and head for the kitchen,
He might look all calm but everything is just weighing him down, he feel as do he's not doing enough to help his wife, he make the cereal and drop the bowl on the high chair with the little boy before exiting the kitchen.

"My one."he call sitting next to her on the chair as he place his hand behind her back.

"What do you want to eat?"he ask and she just stare at him, she have thought about everything, jalal hasn't enjoy a single minute since he married her, it's either dealing with one problem or the other.

"Divorce me."ummi say and jalal give her a confuse look.

"What?
Why?
I mean did i do something wrong?"he bombarded the questions and ummi sigh.

"Jalal your life, dreams and everything has been put to halt since you met me, I'm like a........

"Ummi."jalal call staring at her.

"Been with you is my decision and i love you,
So what if things are rough in your life now, who says it's always going to be like this forever, whatever have a Beginning have an end,
None of this will last forever and i don't mind been with you every step of it, "kinji"jalal say and ummi stare at him.

How she got lucky to be with someone like him is something she still doesn't understand.

"It's a crucial time."ummi say and jalal nod.

"Yeah."he say with a sigh.

"Tomorrow is Amir's doctor appointment."jalal say with a sigh as a yawn escape his mouth.

"Yeah firdaus and my dad DNA result will be ready to."ummi say and jalal stare at her.

"Do you think she's your sister?"jalal ask and ummi shake her head.

"I don't know j,
It doesn't matter, I just want my mum and dad back together."ummi say and jalal nod in understanding.

"I hope she's not."jalal say and facepalm.
"Perhaps that will somehow bring some closure for everyone."he say and ummi nod.