You're The Bad Guy

I DON'T WANT THIS

⚠TW: Rape/SA⚠

- 3 weeks later - 

Ugh

I hate life

After realising that I might be catching feelings, I have avoided Billie

It has been almost a month

I don't think I could handle ANY strong feelings

Especially... that

I'm not a person that does that sort of stuff

I'm that girl that stays quiet

In the background

I am the extra in my own story

I'm the NPC in the game that is life

I don't fall in-

I'm not gonna finish that sentence

It can't be that... right?

It was probably gas

Yeah

That's what it was

Gas

Ugh get yourself together, Sydney!

You hate her 

She's that annoying bitch that has ruined your senior year

Nothing more

Nothing

God this is so frustrating

Imma go for a walk to clear my head

Maybe I might step in front of a moving bus and die

That'll solve my problems

As I wallow in my own self pity, my phone dings

Vic

Yo theres a party tonight wanna come

What time?

Starts at 7

Sure why not

OK cool 

Also can u pick me up 🙏

OK but if ur slow ass isnt ready by 6:45 im leaving without u

Ty babes 😘

🙄

I toss my phone on my bed before dragging myself to my closet to find an outfit

If I'm a mental mess I might as well look good doing it

I pick out a basic outfit before hopping in the shower

I do my business and get dressed before standing in front of the mirror and coming to a halting realisation

"How did I not realise I was gay? I look like a lesbian's Pinterest page" I say studying my clothes