You're The Bad Guy

Just Her

⚠TW: Rape/SA/SH/Attempted Suicide/Blood/Gore⚠

I feel powerless

Dirty

I kept telling him to stop

I begged for him not to carry on

But he did

The only thought in my head is how this is my fault

I shouldn't have come up here with him 

I shouldn't have trusted him

This is my fault

And here I am 

Half naked on the floor

While he walks away unfazed

I feel disgusting

I'm in pain

It hurts so bad

I hate this

I hate myself

I just let him do it

Because no matter how hard I tried to fight him

He was stronger

And I'm weak

I wanted to scream but nothing would come out

It was like I was under water

I couldn't breathe

Suffocated by the helpless feeling

There's no one to help me

I'm alone

I'm lost

"Syd, are you in here?" A voice says from outside the door 

I sit up in fear, unable to respond

The door opens and I see Billie walk in

She sees me and runs over

"Sydney, are you OK?" she says resting a hand on my shoulder

"NO! DON'T TOUCH ME!" I cry "Don't touch me"

"Hey, c'mere" she pulls me into her arms

"I t-told him to stop" I sob into the crook of her neck "I p-pleaded for him t-to leave me alone b-but he didn't li-listen to me"

"Who? What's going on?" Billie says, holding me close to her

"P-please make it s-stop, Billie. It h-hurts so b-bad" I weep, the air refusing to meet my lungs

[Billie's POV]

What's going on?

I walk in and Sydney's half-naked on the floor in the corner

She looked scared

Terrified even

It hurts seeing her like this

"It h-hurts, Billie" she cries as I cradle her in my arms

I never thought I'd ever see her like this

I don't like it

I want her to be happy

I want her to feel safe

I don't want her to be feeling this way

I want to make her feel better but that means I need to know what happened and I don't want to ask