You're The Bad Guy

Maybe I Am

It has been a week since Billie's sleepover

I haven't spoken to her once

Things were kind of awkward after we did it

I wasn't thinking clearly

God I hate alcohol (What else am I gonna blame my stupid actions on?)

I haven't spoken to Quinn either

I feel like shit

Am I really that bad at sex?

Maybe I should have watched porn

No

I don't want Billie to think she's right

I hate my life so much

Not only is my dick freakish, apparently it's also useless

What is the point of having it if I can't even use it properly?

At this point I'm actually considering vaginoplasty surgery

I hate it so much

I want to be normal

Is that too much to ask?

Ugh, my head hurts

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I'm currently sitting in Music class

Billie is sitting on the other side of the room

Does she really not want to be near me?

Why am I even thinking about this?

I don't like girls

It was a one time thing

Right?

God, I can't think of anything but her

It's torturous

And what's worse is the fact that every time I look at her I start getting hard

All I can picture is her naked body under me

Ugh, now I'm hard

I pull my bag over my lap as I try to focus on my work

It's starting to hurt

Why does it have to be so big?

I lean forward on my desk as I wait for it to go away

[Billie's POV]

God this class is boring

I love music but this class is dead as fuck

I decided to sit away from Sydney this lesson despite the fact that I want to be near her

And I keep catching myself stare at her

I don't mean to

She's just so attractive

And that night

I would kill for that again

I go to look over to her but before I full see, I see her looking at me in the corner of my eye

Maybe I'm imagining it

I look over and see her pull her bag up onto her lap and lean forward