Beneath The Clandestine Paradise (Chaotic Series #3)

Kabanata 12

Beneath The Clandestine Paradise

Kabanata 12

Abot-langit ang pagkukwento ko kay Maura sa personal nang makauwi kami galing Moalboal. I was shaking and screaming on my bed. Paulit-ulit na nga ako.

"I hope it continues for real!" Maura said.

I haven't told Ruiz yet because he's out so I texted him to come here in my penthouse tonight. Excited na rin akong ibalita sa kaniya ito. He'll surely run a test for me.

"Talaga bang sobrang labo ng mga mukha nila? I mean, uh?" Maura struggled to find the right words.

Tumango ako, naiintindihan ang sinasabi niya. "It was scattered when I woke up. It disappears suddenly when I wake up. It's so unlikely that I remember something now. Though it's a little thing, it was very new to me. Ngayon lang may naiwang kagat ng alaala ko."

"Sure kang hindi 'yon panaginip, ah?"

Determinado ang pag-iling ko. "I'm very sure, Maura. When I dream, I remember, especially when it's weird and funny. And I don't usually dream. Maybe memories are playing in my head when I'm super tired? Exhausted. Drained. I was drained and empty when I slept yesterday. What if I exhaust and exhaust myself? I think-"

Maura shook her head and cupped my cheeks. She smiled comfortingly at me. "No, babe. Hindi pa rin maganda. Don't exhaust yourself, sleeping with a headache is bad, you know that. Let's just wait again if your memories will re-meet you, okay?"

I was so overwhelmed so I listened to Maura. Pakiramdam ko, kapag sobrang pagod ako, doon nagsusulputan ang mga piraso ng alaala.

Maybe being exhausted trigger them? Or being so emotional triggers them? Alin ba? I don't really know! Sana ay isa sa mga 'yon.

"Very, very rare. Your condition is very rare, Al," sabi ni Ruiz nang magsagawa na sa akin ng test mismo rito sa penthouse ko. "Based on my diagnostic test of an MRI and CT scan, your damaged brain was triggered because of exhaustion. And after ten years of losing all your memories, all of a sudden, you remember a thing. I call it a miracle."

Kinabahan agad ako.

Actually, I don't care about my tests much. Arivaro said that there's nothing left, that I couldn't retrieve my memories anymore. But right now, I have recovered one. At sa sampung taon na ngayon lang ako may natandaan, I believe this is a miracle too.

Even tests can't find the fact why I remembered a thing after almost a decade. My condition is very rare and I know that even doctors could not handle my condition properly.

Ruiz came near me. "Don't push yourself. Hindi maganda na pilit ka nang pilit hanggang sa napapagod ka na. It will have a big effect on you. Remember that your brain is damaged."

I know they are just worried about me. I understand them. But if exhausting myself and draining my brain will help me remember, I will do it. Basta ba'y kahit katiting na alaala ulit, magkameron lang, titiisin ko ang pagod.

I should be thankful I found a possible way! Maybe exhausting myself is the path to remembering one thing after another. Maybe exhausting myself until my battery runs out.

"Nagmamadali ka ba, Ms. Alegna?" Grim asked when he opened the Coupe's door for me.

"Not really," I smiled at him. "Good morning!"

His lips pursed. Parang nanibago dahil masiyado akong good mood na good mood ngayon. Ngumisi ako sa kaniya at pumasok.

I remember what happened in Moalboal last day. Naisip ko tuloy na baka iniisip niyang gusto kong magpakamatay doon sa ilalim ng tubig. I remember how he was so worried about me.