My little girl

33. All is well

Chris-

I just can't believe it I truly cannot and I will not believe it that we've had three unexpected pregnancies and off by the grace of God turn out perfect you ask yourself that every single day like how old is that hat like I have two little girls and I figured out why Sention had always been so so scared.

I mean she was afraid that when she seen day or that mommy was dying and it scared her and we should've maybe communicated a little bit better, but we didn't wanna you to scare her that we didn't wanna put too much information and you know her brain because she doesn't need to know the whole process of birth and you know everything like that yet because she still a kid she doesn't need to know that and you know,

I pray that she never has to see alive, unexpected birthday at her campus or you know school where it's going to traumatize her, but she told me that when she see mommy, you know with the light full of blood, it really scared her and I can't say that I blame her and I tell her every day that when something scares us we need to you know talk about her feelings and I told her that when she was on the way, you know five years ago that.

I thought mommy was very sick and was going to be with the angels and I think you know maybe she heard the saying on TV you know that someone was dying and going to be in the angels and I think when you know Dale was born you know Liz didn't know that the fluid was you know him trying to tell her that he was on his way and it was so scary for me when sent you was born and when they told me that Liz was sick again. I've been pregnant.

Was hoping for a baby but I was like there's no way God's going to bless us a second time with an unexpected you know baby and you know a healthy pregnancy I was like he won't do that trust trade you know God gives gifts but I know he does can't can only give you so much of them so when she was pregnant with Dale I was just beside myself and you know with Ivy we weren't even trying for a baby so we don't even know how she came, and you know just despite the circumstances against everything, the birth-control that everything you know the birth control shot is what she was on it failed because Liz still got pregnant with her and I'm grateful for that and I'll always be grateful for that. I'm just an off as I hold sentient close to me. I just know that there is hope not. Everybody has to have a tragic ending. You can have a happy ending for once.

Gotta hold on easy as I let you go
Gonna tell how much I love you
Though you think you already know
I remember I thought you looked like an angel
Wrapped in pink, so soft and warm
You've had me wrapped around your finger
Since the day you were born
You're beautiful, baby, from the outside in
Chase your dreams, but always know the road
That'll lead you home again
Go on, take on this whole world
But to me you know you'll always be
My little girl
When you were in trouble, that crooked little smile
Could melt my heart of stone
Now look at you, I've turned around
And you've almost grown
Sometimes you're asleep, I whisper, I love you

In the moonlight at your door
As I walk away, I hear you say
Daddy, love you more I sang sunshine her lullaby because our song as you are my sunshine but I don't want her to think that because she's got a baby sister now that she's not my little girl because she's always gonna be my little girl. Regardless, if I have two offers free, she's always going to all going to be my little girls because I love them and you know I'm just so so grateful. sunshine -
daddy is mommy coming to tuck me in soon. I miss her is she coming?

Chris -

yes honey she's giving Dal  his milk and you know he has to watch an episode of Cocomelon before he goes to sleep and then he goes to sleep and Ivy is down which I think Ivy just went to sleep mommy's gonna come in and sing you a song.

Liz -

I'm here now honey and as promised here is your lullaby
Twinkle, twinkle, little star, How I wonder what you are! Up above the world so high, Like a diamond in the sky. Twinkle, twinkle, little star, How I wonder what you are!

When the blazing sun is gone, When he nothing shines upon, Then you show your little light, Twinkle, twinkle, all the night. Twinkle, twinkle, little star, How I wonder what you are!
Then the traveller in the dark, Thanks you for your tiny spark, He could not see which way to go, If you did not twinkle so. Twinkle, twinkle, little star,
How I wonder what you are!

In the dark blue sky you keep,
And often through my curtains peep, For you never shut your eye,
Till the sun is in the sky.
Twinkle, twinkle, little star,
How I wonder what you are!

As your bright and tiny spark, Lights the traveller in the dark,— Though I know not what you are,
Twinkle, twinkle, little star. Twinkle, twinkle, little star, How I wonder what you are goodnight my angel .
Sun chin-
good night mommy
Chris - the quicker you go to sleep the quicker Santa will be here the next morning reason I woke up. It was Christmas Eve and I wanted to give her something always always go overboard on each other we try not to, but it was just something that I had to. Do you know like I had to give her something in the way, because I have loved his so much and I just couldn't wait to give it to her wake up my love I have a surprise for you " oh Chris what is this ?"
I couldn't wait for her to open up to necklace, but as soon as she opened it, the necklace played a little tune that her, and I know all two all too well she began to cry, and I begin to cry  The day we met,
Frozen I held my breath
Right from the start
I knew that I'd found a home for my heart
Beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave?
How can I love when I'm afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone?
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow
One step closer
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more
Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this
One step closer
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more
And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more
Liz -
I love you Chris
Chris -
I love you too Liz for a thousand more .