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"i do have a problem with his job, lix," jisung started and leaned on his friend's shoulder, "i can't let him work."

"okay, why?"

"because he is in contact with all those people each time, and they like him like i did, and they're doing exactly what i did to meet him," jisung scrunched his face with annoyance, "and he does with them exactly what he does with me."

"is that what it's all about?," felix incredulously exclaimed and made his friend jump up in surprise, "you don't want him to be a prostitute because you're jealous?"

"i'm not jealous, i just," jisung tried to defend himself and mumbled, "how would i know that he wouldn't fall for another bottom virgin who paid him? or maybe he prefers to be a bottom himself and there are tons of people that are treating him the way he likes, if he has kinks and all.."

"but he wants to date you, jisung. he wants to monogamously date you, so that means that he's attracted to you. as a person, it's not just about your sex."

"still," the shorter uttered after reflection, "i'm just figuring things out with like, sex and all, and it's bad enough that he's more than a guru in that area.. but sleeping with other people and constantly comparing us.. i just can't do that," he admitted in a low and slow voice.

"who's comparing though? him or you?"

"even if it's just me," jisung insisted, "i can't wait for him in his own bed, wondering when he'll end up falling for the customer he had the best sex in his life with.."

"that's not gonna happen! he's had many partners, and there's clearly no emotions involved for him.."

"yeah, just like how there were none with me," the brunette continued, lifting his brow, "he's not made of steel.."

"maybe not but if he keeps having sex with you and keeping in touch then he will like you more than his clients.."

"maybe, but that doesn't mean that he likes our sex.."

"but you just said it was good..?"

"yes, good to me. but what do i understand? i just stand there, wait for him to do the magic so i can come," jisung looked down in disappointment and furrowed his brows, "tonight i told him i had a fun time but he didn't say it back."

"is your ego really that big?," felix couldn't help but cry out with a reprimanding tone, "he literally has had great sex with many many people and he still told you he's into you and wants to date you and you're going to refuse because you might not be the sex partner he likes best?"

"it's just tha-"

"well, spoiler alert: you're not! and i don't think he keeps a list. but it's a fucking mutual thing and you're ruining it with your complaining and selfish concerns.. have you lost your mind?," he scolded loudly and furiously and jisung started shedding tears upon getting shouted at.

"he has the right to do whichever job he likes and you're not even his boyfriend and you're already controlling him! this isn't what dating is about, ji! you should accept him the way he is, and trust him for god's sake!"

"what do you think i should do?"

"let him have the fucking job," felix advised, slipping back into his calm demeanour, "he's almost graduating. it won't be forever."

jisung continued sobbing, out of exhaustion and the blonde started trying to soothe him through apologising as they sat on the bench throughout the night.

~

"hey, minho," chan called his friend over and they sat down on the chairs in the cafeteria, "how have you been? any progress with jisung?"

"not really," the younger admitted and smacked his lips together as he was sitting down. speaking to someone might help, he thought and waited for follow-up questions.

"really? do you think it might be because of the thing that i learned recently?"

"it is," minho sighed and licked his lips, "but even though he talked about how unsafe prostitution was, him and i.. did it last week after that conversation.."

chan's jaw dropped, "wait, last week? and you keep talking?"

"not really. he hasn't been over, no texts either," the younger huffed, "for all i know it may have been the end.. but i just don't understand him.. he's been talking about the hazards of me having sex with strangers but it didn't bother him when i took his virginity," he furrowed his brows almost angrily.

"you what?," chan was stunned again, "i mean, really? and it didn't bother him the first time?"

"no. not the second one either," minho crossed his arms in front of his chest.

"that's really strange.. maybe he just doesn't like you having.. you know.. with other people," chan quietly censored the word sex from his speech and his eyes scanned the cafeteria before speaking. he didn't want to create a bad public image of them, although it was loud enough in the cafeteria.

"imagine how scary it still must be for him as a virgin to think about you with other people," he reasoned in a soft tone, "he must be really scared of being replaceable to you.."

"but he's not," minho exclaimed almost angrily, "i like his personality!"

"yes, but maybe he wants you to like everything and he's panicking because he knows you've seen better."

"i don't care if he's not the best," the younger clicked his tongue, "he doesn't need to be and i'm fine with teaching him.. but he was pretty rude to me last time.."

"it's probably just a defense mechanism.. that you don't have to put up with if it's offensive..," chan advised.

"i don't know.. it didn't stop me from.. doing it with him after.. he probably doesn't sound that way but he's really fun. and entertaining. and i even love how he acts during sex.. he's so cute but then his body is hot and.. um, yeah.. sorry, hyung," minho blushed with embarrassment.

"look, if you really want him to date you, you should give up the job," chan suggested carefully, "i know it's your right to do any job you want but i think it'll do him more harm than it'd do you good."

"alright, i have to go now, hyung, but thanks. you and felix are really trying to save this, huh?," the younger smiled and stood up.

chan smacked his lips together and his cheeks became rosy. he didn't think he'd get caught in the scheme so easily.