TRIGGER WARNING: Eating disorder, abuse, self-harm
The machines beep around me, i woke up. When i opened my eyes i saw Yukov, Lev and Katya. I totally ruined the sleepover.. I have a feeding tube, fuck i thought.
Yukov: Yuri! You're awake! Are you okay?
Lev: We were so worried..
Katya: It all happened to fast.
Yuri: I'm fine.
I fell asleep. Katya and Lev left. Yukov wouldn't leave my side. After a couple of hours i woke up again, a nurse was putting something that will feed me through the tube.
Yukov: Why did you let it go that far?
Yuri: I have to get skinny to the nutcracker.
Yukov: I'm not sure can you perform anymore though.. You weigh 92 pounds, its dangerous for you. It makes your BMI 12,8.
Yuri: I don't need food, i need to get skinnier.
Yukov: You're literally gonna die if you continue.
Yuri: I'd rather die than look the way i do.
Yukov: You're not gonna die. If you pull the tube out, the nurses will put it back in.
Yuri: Fuck you.
Yukov: Your parents are gonna visit here soon so i will give you some alone time. See you soon.
A couple of hours pass and Yuri's parents have arrived to the hospital.
Mom: WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK? THIS ISN'T WHAT I MEANT BY GETTING BACK IN SHAPE! I SWEAR TO GOD IF YOU DON'T GET TO PERFORM I'M GONNA KICK YOU OUT!
Dad: Be aware that i will use the belt.
I stayed quiet and my parents left. I dont know what to do. I'm going to die when i go home.. Yukov came back.
Yukov: What did your parents say?
Yuri: They hate me and i hate myself. If i don't get to perform, my parents are going to kick me out.
Yukov: If they kick you out come live with me.
Yuri: You're so lucky that ur parents gave you your own apartment..
Yukov: My own apartment so i could save you from your parents. You just have to get better and come live with me. I have to go home now, there's a mess in the bathroom and i have school tomorrow. I'm gonna visit you right after school. Good night.
Yuri: Good night..
Yakov left and Yuri started scrolling on his phone. I need to start losing weight right after i get out of here. Yuri fell asleep.
*Morning*
A nurse woke me up to get my bloodwork done and put the calorie liquid to make me fat again.
Nurse: You lost about 70 pounds in 3 months, that's really dangerous. You have to stop training for the next 2-3 months.
Yuri: BUT THAT MEANS THAT I CAN'T PERFORM?!
Nurse: Unfortunately yes.
Yuri: Go away please.
The nurse went away. I should pull out the tube and run away. I have to run away. I have to get to perform it's soon December!!
I got up from the bed and i immediately fell and passed out. I soon woke up with 3 nurses around me putting me on the rest bandages.
Yuri: WHAT THE FUCK?! I'M NOT CRAZY?
Nurse: We have to do this that you can't hurt yourself anymore?
Yuri: What about my rights? I can't even move, what if i have to use the bathroom?
Nurse: We will put this button next to your hand so you can press it if you need something.
I fell asleep again. I'm not sure how long i slept but i woke up when Yukov was tapping me on my shoulder.
Yukov: What the heck happened when i was away?
Yuri: Apparently i'm crazy.
Yukov: You're not crazy believe me.
Yukov brushes Yuri's hair.
Yuri: Stop please.
Yukov: Do you wan't me to get something for you to drink or eat?
Yuri: Fuck no.
Nurse came into the room to check how i'm doing.
Yuri: When can i go home?
Nurse: I'm afraid that you're gonna be admitted to an mental hospital.
Yuri: WHAT THE HELL?
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I'm so sorry (yaoi)
RomanceYuri and Yukov are both 16 years old, russian boys. Yuri is anorexic and does ballet. Yukov tries to save Yuri from all the bad that's happening in his life. Yukov is grateful of his caring parents and wants to help his best friend since he's mental...
