Second Chances

Repercussions

Feyre

New Year's Eve was a nightmare, and now three days later I'm home trying to piece it all together. I woke up in the hotel room with a doctor at my side, checking on me surrounded by my parents, aunt Lo, uncle Kallan, Storm and Jack who all looked worried. My body hurt and was sore from whatever the hell happened. I remember bits and pieces of it all, Colt and Reid bringing me into a room and Colt hitting me over and over again. I remember feeling angry and terrified at what he was saying to me. Reid held me back and let Colt attack me.

I get out of the shower and flinch when I see my reflection in the mirror. A black eye and busted cheek and lip. Hand prints on both of my arms, cracked ribs and memories that I will never be able to forget. I wasn't raped, thank God..... Storm and Jack busted through the door after hearing me scream when they went to the bathroom to check on me. Storm beat the shit out of Colt and Jack made sure Reid couldn't leave. My parents rushed in and broke up the fight, Storm brough me up to the hotel room while my parents sorted out everything with the guys.

Colt and Reid were both arrested and I said yes when I was awake, to press charged against them. Ever since we got home I've been in my room, locked up not wanting to see anyone. I haven't eaten anything but drank water and hot tea. I can't look at Storm after what Colt said about warning him and threating him multiple times, why didn't he tell me?

I feel beat and broken. Not only do I hurt physically, but all the way down to my soul. My heart has this permanent ache and mentally and emotionally I'm not fully there. I flinch at loud noises and fast movements and all I want to do is sleep and cry. I don't want to go back to school, I want to stay here where I know I'll be safe and never leave this room.

There's a knock at the door and then I hear it open "Beauty... Fey" his deep voice calls out and sounds broken.

"I don't want to see you" I choke out.

"Please talk to me" he begs and my heart ache deepens.

I sit up abruptly "I don't want to talk to you or ever see you again!" my voice raises.

He stares at me with tears running down his face "I'm so sorry Feyre... I'm so sorry" I see the bags under his blood shot eyes like he hasn't slept in days.

"You should have told me" falls from my quivering lips.

He steps into the room, closing the door behind him but he keeps distance between us "I know... I should have told you and I'm so sorry that I didn't. I thought I was protecting you because I know how on edge and nervous you were and I didn't want to make it worse. But please believe me when I say that I thought I was doing the right thing"

"I don't.... I don't believe you at all because the right thing was letting me know. I could have been more aware and alert. I wouldn't have gone to the bathroom alone, I would have done anything else Storm. You got into a fight with him? He's the one who keyed your car? What else are you hiding from me? I thought we were a team. We're supposed to tell each other everything remember? But you didn't.... you lied and now I'm broken" he's silent for a moment.

He walks over and couches down onto his knees next to my bed "You're right baby... you're right and I'm such a fucking idiot. I never meant for this to happen, all I wanted to do was keep you safe and instead I put you in harms way. I'm an idiot and I wish I could take it all back and protect you from them" I look down at his bruised and battered knuckles.

"Well you didn't protect me and by now I think it's perfectly clear that you can't" I know this will hurt him the most. He has always felt so guilty about not being there the other times something happened and because I want him to hurt like I am... I say it.