Second Chances

Moving In

Feyre
Two Years Later

I unpack the final box and then lay back on my bed and stare up at the ceiling. I spent the entire day along with my mom and Cassius, setting up my new apartment. They left a couple hours ago while I unpacked my clothes and finished somethings in my room. I found this cute one bedroom in a beautiful skyrise looking over the water here in Long Island. I've been free lance writing for a sports magazine and covering the Islanders and the Rangers for the last year and a half but living with my parents. I finally saved up and found this apartment a month or so ago and decided to apply, within a couple weeks the ball was rolling for me to get it.

My mom and Cassius helped me buy furniture and all of the things I would need and I promised I would pa them back even though they refused. I sit up looking around my quaint bedroom, it fees surreal knowing this is my place and a little lonely. Storm and I made so many plans after graduation about me following him wherever he got drafted and that's all I thought about. Once we broke up or he walked away... I had to eventually figure out new plans for myself.

I finished my degree online and they mailed it me because I didn't want to walk. I watched virtually as Kenzie and Jack walked, because my mom and Cassius were there. Storm was there as well he had returned to campus eventually and begged my dad to let him play. He did and eventually they won the championship game which led to him and Jack being first and second round draft picks into the NHL. Jack is on the Rangers and Storm is on the Boston Bruins and that's where he's been playing the last couple of years.

I followed his career for a while, but gave up when pictures and videos came out of him with different models and girls. My heart couldn't take it and broke all over again like it did the day he walked out on me. It took time for me to come to terms with it all because he never returned any of my class or messages and that nearly crushed me. I was ruined for a long time after he left and wasn't sure if I was ever going to properly heal. Once my lawyer came to me with the plea deal and it wasn't as harsh as I wanted but it was a way to close the horrific chapter of what happened. Colt and Reid both got community service and house arrest for five years.

I was so disappointed with the outcome, but my therapist and I worked through it. Once I landed the writing job after graduation, I started getting involved with both the hockey teams and got to work around Mack more who slowly became a close friend to me. We started to hang out more and more, I became even more familiar with the rest of the team and now have a steady group of friends. Kenzie lives with Jack in Brooklyn and we get together often to hang out or watch him play. She works for an ad agency in Manhattan and is hoping that he will propose soon.

Life has moved forward since it last fell apart but that whole in my heart has remained a reminder of the person I lost. I miss him so much and trust me when I say that I didn't. I wish I could get over him and move on... I've tried to. I've been on a handful of dates in the last year but none of them ever work out. I haven't felt that connection I've been searching for and part of me feels like I won't, because my heart belongs to him still.

The only thing is, how do I let him go? I've been wanting to let him and that whole chapter of my life go but without any closure it makes it impossible. I've given up on reaching out to him since he clearly doesn't want anything to do with me but part of me does hope that maybe one day he will randomly reach out and we can have that conversation that I've been aching for.

Tonight Kenzie and I are going to the Islanders game, Jack in Los Angeles for an away game so she begged me to go with her to see Mack and the guys play. The downfall is tonight they're playing The Bruins. I've successfully avoided this game for over a year now but I have an article due on Wednesday and I need to go tonight to get some more ideas. If it wasn't for that I would have happily told Kenzie to hell no, but that's not the case. So I put my big girl pants on and suck it up. She comes over around six and I start to get ready, Mack gave me an old jersey of his to wear and the immature side of me hopes that Storm sees me in it and assumes the worse.