Why Not Be Mine?

Chapter 9

Hermione's Pov:

I bumped into a figure whilst rushing out of the kitchens with tears in my eyes, I looked up, it was Her. I didn't think I just ran, too embarrassed to apologise. I could feel my legs hurting but I didn't want to stop running, as I got closer and closer to the common room I slowed down. The tears were almost dried up now. I wanted to be in my bed, to hide under the sheets forever. I knew that I shouldn't have gone to the house elves, but who else? I couldn't really talk to Harry or Ron. Lavender had offered to talk, but I knew that she loved gossip and this was simply too big a deal. I couldn't risk anyone finding out at all! But I knew that the house elves were here for other things than "giving advice" they were here to do chores. After all their advice wasn't even that good; I had asked them what to do about Pansy, which of course was stupid, what would they know? I was just so upset and confused at once. I had been thinking so much about her recently, I couldn't help but ask someone, and the house elves just came to my mind firstly. I know that I should have asked Luna or Lavender, but they could spread the word, and that was NOT going to happen. I thought to myself that maybe I should accept it, but I quickly threw it away, it wasn't fit for a girl like me, was it?

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Ron and Harry were walking to Defence against the dark arts and I tried to keep up, they had gotten pretty tall compared to me, so naturally their legs were longer, that meant I had to keep up, and I was usually one to power-walk to classes. I thought about sharing my recent discovery with them, what would they say? how would they react? Would they be mad at me? I decided that if I got the chance I would tell them, after all did they not deserve to know? When we got to Defence Against The Dark Arts. We sat Down in the Dark and gloomy classroom but, I couldn't help but think about her, her hair, her skin, her eyes. The one time she told me about that leaf. I couldn't even focus, I usually tried my best you know, but my head was filled to the brim "MISS GRANGER" Dolores Umbridge yelled "can you repeat my question?". Oh no, I really should have listened, okay something about... maybe thestrals? I went for it "what is the most used spell to fight off a thestral?" I knew how insecure my answer sounded, this was so unlike me! "You Got lucky there miss Granger" she spit. I got lucky, phew.

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Harry, Ron and I were sitting in the common room, no one else was around. Then it came, the feared question: "Mione? Is there any boys here that you like?" We didn't usually talk about these kinds og subjects, but Ron looked so intensely at me. I sighed, I had promised myself to tell them if they gave me a chance, and this was the perfect opportunity, unfortunately. "Okay so, there is no boys, but.."
I really should have thought this through one more time. "There is something I need to tell you guys" I looked at the ground, I knew that their stares were drilling into me, I could feel it. "well spit it out Mione" Ron shrugged. Here we go "I- I like girls". I knew that something was wrong

I knew that it was risky, but they didn't hate me now, did they?