Our One Night Romance (A Rikey Fanfiction) BoyxBoy!

Chapter Seventeen Here's To All the Times We Fucked Up.~

Chapter Seventeen

Here's To All the Times We Fucked Up.

Ray's POV~

"FOR GOD SAKES RAYMOND WHERE THE FUCK WERE YOU!!!! I MEAN MY LITTLE BROTHER IS IN A GOD DAMN HOSPITAL BED ABOUT TO GO THROUGH HEART SURGERY CALLING FOR YOU AND YOU ARE NOWHERE TO BE FUCKING FOUND!!!!..." I heard Gerard yell when he and the others came into the hallway and saw me sitting quietly in the chairs.

"...I MEAN WHERE THE FUCK HAVE YOU BEEN ANYWAY HUH!!! MY BROTHER IS ON A HOSPITAL BED NO NOW HES ON A FUCKING SURGICAL TABLE AND YOU WANT TO PLAY HIDE AND GO FUCKING SEEK WITH US???" he continued.

I rolled my eyes, standing up from the hospital chairs and turning to Gee, my eyes not leaving the ground.

Frank and Jamia went outside for some fresh air and Lindsey took Bob to the downstairs lobby for some snacks from the machine

"Gerard look I'm sorry okay...but I had something to take care of alright!" I said, and starting to regret I said it because Gerard's face grew red and his fist balled up, he looked like he was ready to punch me.

"You were too busy...Too fucking busy to check on my brother, YOUR FUCKING BOYFRIEND..."

"HES NOT MY FUCKING BOYFRIEND!!..." I shot back, finally looking up at him with piercing eyes. He watched me, his tense body was breathing hard with anger and his facial expression was confusing, mixed with rage and regret. He looked tired, desperate and sick with hatred.

"...Look, Gerard... I didn't get your messages until yesterday; my phone was off to preserve power since I had a long trip ahead of me. I got here as soon as I heard okay, that should be enough for you right? Enough for him...Okay I'm sorry. "I said with sincerity but pain.

My heart ached. Not physically but mentally, I put my hands behind my back as Gerard's dark glare pierced me deep. He was WAY past angry with me, I could tell but I really didn't care. I wanted to see Mikey. I wanted to see and talk to him to tell him I forgave him, hell the way Gerard is looking at me; he might not ever see his brother ever again.

"Ray...My brother woke up to the faces of his brother and two best friends...also the warming faces of our girlfriends...The face he didn't see though was the face of the person he thought loved him...For days he was expecting a call from you...at least ONE little phone call to make sure you were okay and to encourage him through this time of illness. So yeah, you showed up...you showed up at the hospital the day of the surgery but you didn't show up by his side, you should be ashamed you lead him to believe that you will always be here for him but then...when the pressure gets to heavy, when he does one bad thing and hurts you; you are ready to abandon him?...Do you think that this...this is enough Raymond?"

I looked away from Gerard's glare that still stung my heart; I looked towards Mikey's room and saw the green surgical curtain separating me from his beautiful face.

Tears stained my cheeks as the realization finally hit me, Gerard was right...Yeah Mikey did one horrible twisted thing but how did I handle it? Like a spoiled child, running away and doing things that I regret...This whole situation is what I'm starting to regret...What would have happened if I didn't hear him say he loved me? What would have happened if I didn't kiss him in the room that evening or if I never fell in love with him knowing that it was wrong because I have a fiancée?

This whole situation was a big mistake, this whole thing...I should have never got involved this way. I should have stayed my distance because this is wrong, this whole thing was just...just wrong.

I looked at Gerard as he looked back, he must have saw my pain and understood what I was thinking, what I just realized because the next thing he did was hugged me tightly and told me it was going to be alright.

But will it really be alright? I cheated on my fiancée and lead on my best friend, not to mention get hated by everyone in the band and then some and probably broke more hearts than I should.

So will it really be alright?