Secrets Unfold Into Pain (A Sansby Story)

Thoughts

Grillbys POV:

My eyes open slightly and I blink to try and process where I am. I feel something under and on top my head I look up to see my head in sans's lap and he fell asleep petting my head making me smile. I sit up and stretch and I turn to the sleeping skeleton and kiss his skull. "Thank you, sans. " I say quietly.

I lay him down and tuck him in and check the time and see its 11 pm. I was asleep for a while. I'm still slightly tired but not enough to fall back asleep yet. I go down stairs and see a note on the fridge.

"Hey g. I decided to let you sleep and not wake you for dinner. Fuku ate and finished her homework and is in bed, I cleaned the dishes so you wouldn't have to get a panic attack with seeing water. And I left a plate for you in the fridge. I'll clean it in the morning -sans
<3 " it read and I smile lightly. he's so caring.

I open the fridge and sure enough there was a plate of spaghetti with Saran wrap over it so the noodles wouldn't dry out. I take off the wrap and eat it cold. I don't mind cold food as flame monsters can't really taste temperature difference when eating.

I couldn't help but let my mind wander to previous thoughts. Should I get his input on if a reset does happen..? I wonder if he worries too.. What if we brake up over it...Though we technically aren't officially together.

Yes we confessed our feelings but we never established if we were a full thing yet. I would assume so. I wonder if he worries about these things too..

I finished my food and put it in the counter and I sat on the couch to continue thinking. Despite my previous preference I took my glove off and just looked at my hand. I know Ill never he able to fully open this hand again. I couldn't help but reflect on the events that happened today..

I made a portal that let an unknown being into our world, told sans I love him before sacrificing myself to save him and and his brother, he almost died saving me, I almost died if I was just a millisecond too late to make a choice, sans told me he loved me back, and now I'm here.

I'm here when it doesn't matter if I'm here or not. I can't help but have a feeling of pessimism and nihilism. I'm glad I know about the resets and timelines as I can understand sans more. But at the same time.. I wish I stayed oblivious about this world.

But..If I didn't know about the timelines and resets...Would I have been so quick to be ok with dying? Would I still have sat there in the darkness when sans tried to heal me?... What would've changed..?

"Grillbs?" I hear a tired voice come from the stairs followed by a yawn and I look over to see the little skeleton. I don't feel like talking as I'm still slightly lost in my thoughts. "it's just you sans. Why are you up? " I ask, signing and he sits down next to me. "I couldn't feel you next to me anymore and it woke me up." he said

"Did you eat? " he asked "yes I did. Thank you for dinner sans. I appreciate it. " I sign. "Of course. " he says and there's a pause. "You ok? " he asks and I stay silent for a while, my body's snaps and pops being the only noise in the room.

"...Do you think its smart for us to be dating?.." I ask, braking the silence. not looking at him but I can see he looks surprised by my question out the corner of my eye. "Woah, What brought that up?" He asks and I can't help but stay silent.

"are you..having second thoughts..?" he asked "not necessarily...Its just that I t can't help but wonder.." I pause. "Sans, what will you do if frisk resets?.." I ask and he looks at the floor. "...I dont know.. I've been trying to figure that out myself.. " he admits, his pinpricks disappearing and my flames dim and in response turn red instead of my usual orange and my fire's crackles quiet down too.

"I don't want you hurt if something happens..I still want to be with you. But.. If this relationship will just hurt you in the end if a reset happens...I don't know if I could go through with this relationship..." I dont want to think about it but I have to. We have to have this talk.

He grips his shirt in response to my words. "I don't want us to brake up...If something happens.. Ill figure out something.. But for now I want to be happy with you. " he says.

"I want to be happy with you too.. I just wish we didn't have to worry about these things.. I want to live my life with you. And I wanted to maybe even have a family in the future.. But we can't..the future technically doesn't exist. " I sign and we go back to silence, both lost in our own thoughts.

"I'm sorry..." He speaks up causing me to look at him, surprised. "for what? " I ask. "I'm sorry I brought you into my problems.. I'm sorry dream gave you this knowledge.. I don't want you living like me.. If.. If You want me to I can see if it's possible for error to just reset your memory.." he suggests.

"No. I'm glad I know. " I reply. "Why? " he asks and that makes me think. I'm not sure why I'm glad. But I don't hate that I know. Yes I do kinda wish I didn't know however..i don't want to get rid of this knowledge. "not sure. I just know I'm glad that I know. " I sign. But now were both thinking of what to do next.

"So what now..? " I eventually ask. "If you want to I want to still be with you.. However if you want to separate I understand.. " he says and I hold his hand. "I want to stay with you." I speak. "As for if a reset happens. I want you to know no matter what happens ill always love you. ill be falling right back in love with you every time Ill see you. And I want you to remember this timeline for both of us. " I say and he gives me a peck on the lips which admittedly causes me to flair to a lavender color and hide my face behind my hand, bashfully

Yes we've kissed more passionate before but now I'm able to fully process and feel the full emotion of the kiss. And I can tell it's the same for sans as he himself is blushing a bit too. "I love you grillby." He says. "I love you too, sans. " I say not looking at him in the sockets still slightly shy from the kiss. And he gives a small chuckle.

"It's cute to see you shy, grill. Especially after a kiss. " he says. You could practically hear the big smile on his face. and my flames grow brighter. "What can I say? I have the hots for you." I joke chuckling and he gives a laugh in return.

"God I love you " sans says "I love you too " I reply. I couldn't help but let out a tired yawn. And sans give one in response. "We should probably head back to bed " I say "yeah your probably right. " sans says stretching.

"If you want I can sleep on the couch. I on my feel asleep next to you because you were having a nightmare. " sans says. "I don't mind you and I sharing the bed if you aren't. I'm not having you on a couch. that's awful for your back, sans. " I say. "I've fallen asleep in worse places." He comments. "That's awful sans." I sigh in disappointment.

"But if you're cool with it I don't mind. it's not like we haven't fallen asleep in the same bed before." sans says.

I nod and we walk up the stairs to to my room. "Would you like some more comfortable clothes to sleep in? Those don't look like it'll be comfortable." I say. "Nah it's fine. " he says. "You're sure? " I ask "yeah." He replied.

I get in my bed and sans follows. I put my glasses on the nightstand and sans cuddles into me and uses my arm as a pillow. I wrap my free arm around him and kiss his skull. "Night sans " I say. "Night g" he says and all my worries melt away as we fall asleep.