i downed the last of the black label,
and lit my life's work with a cigarette.
i swayed to the sound of vinyl and crackling embers,
and accepted that i didn't know it all yet.
i moved onto the merlot
and called him to tell him we were done.
i slipped off my stilettos and spun on the tile,
overjoyed that my life had just begun.
i whisked a little white
opened my laptop, and applied to be an artist.
i drew the shades to the financial district
and reminded myself that i'm the smartest.
i finished a bottle of champagne,
and observed the neighbors i never knew.
i complimented a lady's coat,
and learnt that i can get inside by going through.
i scanned the atrocious state of my apartment,
and a sense of euphoria overcame me.
god, it shouldn't have taken this long
to feel so fucking free.
i opened my eyes to the cry of a machine,
and held my head as i discovered it was a dream.
the nurse flashed concerned eyes as i left my bed,
and i responded with a smirk, for tonight,
i'd be right back in my head.
that is where i am a wise woman
unchained from herself and her obligations.
that is where i am a bearable woman
who is able to exist without escapism.
