I need more temporary happiness in my life. I know that it's not realistic if I strive for anything more. It's just like what everyone says—everything in life is temporary. I need to make the most of the temporary happiness I have in my life or else I'll have nothing. Everything that I've done will have been for nothing. It's so annoying to think about how this vicious cycle continues to go on and on and on. I don't know how much longer I can deal with this. It's so hard. Everything is just so hard. I don't know how other people deal with it. I don't even know how I'm dealing with it. I ask myself almost every single day, "what am I even doing this for? Why am I trying so hard? Why am I trying so little?" There's never a balance in anything. I can never have what I strive for. I can only have what I already have. I'm so mentally, physically, and spiritually drained. What did I do to deserve this? I'm so tired of pretending to be a bunch of different people. I wish I knew who I was. I wish I could restart.
STAI LEGGENDO
Jada's Journal
CasualeWARNING: Depictions of violence, certain aspects that may be triggering, and language that may be portrayed as offensive. "Lots of gay shit on the daily-do." - Jada, 2017 "If you swallow cum you'll get pregnant." - Ivey, 2018 "When in defeat just be...
