RESTART //larry stylinson//

chapter 2

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Regret

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After they put the twins to sleep the boys made their way back downstairs as Harry wanted to finish watching Nemo. Harry has a schedule, he normally goes to bed at the same time as the twins which is 8 but tonight Louis decided to let Harry stay up.

The two cuddle on the sofa and end up putting the lion king on after Harry begs Louis to, and Louis can't resist his baby.

Louis threads his hands through Harry's curls as his head lays on his lap. The movie is completely ignored by both of them as Harry rolls over face to face with Louis's tummy. He looks up at him with a smile on his lips, louis can't stop the smile on his as he leans down to kiss him.

The piece was interrupted by the sound of small pattering coming down the stairs Louis frowns and Harry sits up as the door creaks open. Noah enters the room holding freedom in his hands rubbing his eyes tiredly.

"Noah it's way past your bedtime, what are you doing up munchkin," harry says standing up and picking the boy onto his hip. Louis watches with a warm smile as Noah's head falls tiredly into Harry's neck "Missed daddies" he mumbles

Both boys couldn't stop themselves from cooing at the boy. Louis stood up and walked over to the two and places a small kiss on the boy's head and he reaches over to his arms "daddys not going anywhere baby I promise" I say rocking him in my arms.

"I think we should take him to bed," Harry says "Nooo I don't wanna leave Daddy" Louis smiles a bit "We're not going anywhere baby," he says bringing Noah closer for a cuddle and rubbing his back lightly "no no you left us with other people" Louis's eyes widen looking to harry who holds the same expression "what are you on about darling?" Harry asks moving to the two "Daddies left us on our own in a weird home with other people" Harry shakes his head as Louis talks "We never did that Noah it must have been a dream" Noah sighs "But even tam tam remembers too!" Harry stood there rubbing his chin looking guilty "It was just a dream baby boy" Louis says making Harry walk out of the room not wanting this to happen

Louis watches Harry leave before turning back to Noah "It was a dream okay? Now that's the end of it let's get you back to bed kiddo" Louis says before turning off the TV and taking Noah back to bed "no daddys going to leave again!" Louis shushes Noah "We're not baby were just gonna be in the other room okay?" Noah sighs "Can daddy sing?" Louis nods and neals beside Noah on the bed tucking him in

"What song do you want?" Louis asks kissing his cheek "Special song" Louis smiles before singing quietly "Pour mercy, mercy on me, set fire to history, I'm breakin' my own rules, I'm cryin' like a fool, Tall stories on the page, short glories on the fade, I've been close enough to touch, but I never, cared for love, It's a church of burnt romances, and I'm too far gone to pray, it's a solo song and it's only for the brave...goodnight Noah"

Louis closes the door before moving to his room to find Harry sitting on the edge of the bed his head in his hands. Louis closes the door after stepping inside and slowly makes his way to Harry "he's asleep now...I think he thinks it's a dream, so, we're all good" Harry doesn't say anything making Louis keels down in front of him taking his hands off his face and looking at him.

Harry's face was tear-stained, his eyes were puffy and red from crying and his hair was tatty from his obvious hair pulling that Louis knows he does when he's stressed. "Talk to me," Louis says. The room was silent besides Harry's occasional sniffs "I hate lieing to them" Louis doesn't say anything he just lets Harry talk

"We lie about who we are, what we've done, how we got them, and now we're Telling them it was a dream" Harry's eyes fill up again "making them seem crazy... what's gonna happen when they find out lou. Tammy's gonna find out when she goes to school and then noahs gonna find out too, we're going to lose their trust completely, especially when they find out we- we've killed people" Harry couldn't stop his tears "We have to tell them, it's the decent thing to do at least. Tell them before they find out from others"

Louis looks up to Harry as his hair falls infront of his face "This was supposed to be a new start. To get away from everything but now I just feel like we have to hide everything" Louis moves Harry's hair behind his ear gently "Baby we're protecting them" Harry sighs "From what louis? From us?! If we wanted to do that we wouldn't have adopted them! We're dangerous lou!!" Harry moves out of Louis's grip now annoyed and frustrated "haz we're not dangerous," Louis says calmly "YES WE ARE!!! we have KILLED people Louis KILLED PEOPLE!!" Louis moves to Harry whos now across the room

"Shhh be quiet baby, I know I know we have but like I said we did what we had to do to survive" Harry shakes his head "Liam didn't deserve it, he didn't derve it" he says biting his lip. Louis could see how broken Harry was at the moment "baby he was trying to kill you" harry pulled at his hair frustrated "BUT HE DIDNT DESERVE IT!! HE HAD A KID LOU!! HE HAD A LIFE" Louis shakes his head "You were protecting me Harry" Harry looks to Louis "I was selfish, I just wanted you, I was putting everyone in danger. I STOOD THERE AS HE KILLED MIKE AND HIS FAMILY!!"

Louis took a step back as Harry screamed at him everything that had just been building up slowly inside him waiting for him to break "I don't deserve to be a parent lou" Harry said crumbling to tears on the floor his breathing heavy as he said the thing that's been circling his brain for months

Louis moved to Harry slowly kneeling next to him before pulling him into a hug. Harry instantly clutched Louis's shirt tight "Shhh it's okay," louis said bringing Harry closer and kissing his head of curls "Listen, baby, no one in this world is the perfect parent, people have done bad things in their lives but that doesn't mean that they don't deserve happiness, that they don't deserve a second chance, that they should keep beating themselves up for what they had to do then. You are an amazing dad harry, you are kind, and caring, and you have so much life experience to teach them, you shouldn't put yourself down for something you did in the past, you see this carpet we're sitting on, this room we painted together, this house we made our home, our restart, we did that piece by piece but were not finished yet, it's still gonna take a while for us to get a hang of our new life. And just because we're having one setback doesn't make you a bad parent Harry; if anything it makes you a great parent, you don't want to lie to your kids, unlike me who wants to keep it a secret forever and I know that's never going to happen. I know you miss our old life, I know you miss going on tour and writing songs, and believe me so do I. That's why in the morning Tammy and Noah are gonna come downstairs, Tammy in her new fancy uniform and we're gonna sit them down and tell them everything" Harry calms his crying leaning back "Everything?" He says whipping his nose "Okay maybe not everything, but gradually everything. And then we're going to start writing songs together like we said we'd always do, I'll contact my team and see if we can make an album together, maybe get Niall and Zayn involved how about that?" Harry nodded "But what about the twins? What if we go on tour?" Louis chuckles "They'll come with us silly," Louis says bopping Harry's nose and making him laugh

"There's that smile I love," Louis says smiling at Harry making him blush "Now it's way past your bedtime Mr, let's get you to sleep," Louis says picking Harry up from his armpits and flopping each other onto the bed. Soon enough the two were both under the covers cuddled up together "What about me being a little? Do we tell them that?" Louis kisses Harry's head as he rubbed his nose into Louis's chest "It's up to you baby, I know you haven't had much headspace time lately we should probably get you checked out by a doctor to see if that affects you in any way" harry shakes his head "m fine daddy there's no need" Louis sighs "you sure?" Harry nodded tirelessly

"I'm so proud of you baby" Louis whispers into the silence Harry responds with a "hm" making Louis chuckle slightly "You talked about Liam without panicking," Louis said making Harry freeze "Well I kinda was a bit" Louis sighs "Yeah but not because of him, I'm just so proud of you" Louis sates quietly as his words drift off into silence as harry falls to sleep feeling happy he's made his daddy proud.

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