Ex

08

Third person's POV

"Ryujin... can we... talk?" Beomgyu finally took up the courage, from all the couples in the show his and Ryujin's relationship was the one that never had a change.

"I don't think there's something to talk about. We're done Beomgyu. We ended our relationship, what's the point of talking?" Beomgyu expected this from Ryujin yet he still froze in his spot.

"Then why did you agree to the show? That means there's still something that you want to talk about, right?"

Beomgyu smiled when he saw how Ryujin opened and immediately closed her mouth. She didn't know what to say.

"Why..? Why do you have to fucking ask me why I joined the show? Why!? Beomgyu why!?" Beomgyu was surprised at Ryujin's sudden outburst.

"Why!? Why!? Why!? Tell me the fuck why!" Ryujin's tears we're already pouring. She felt all her insecurities coming back to her.

Ryujin's POV

I hate it. Feeling so insecure just because I loved him. It was true, I wanted to know something but I felt to pathetic when he realized why I joined the show.

How pathetic am I? I'm so fucking stupid. How desperate am I that I was willing to see him again. That I was willing to risk the confidence I tried to built all those years.

"I'm so tired Beomgyu! I feel so f-fucking insecure when I'm around you. I'm so p-pathetic. Why did I love you that much?"

I didn't care if we we're not talking inside the room, all I cared about was letting my feelings out.

Does he even know what I felt when I saw her with another girl? How I felt like I was not enough for him?

"Y-you! You came to my life, c-courting me, taking c-care of me! You made me l-love you, you made me realize that I can love s-someone that much. Y-you... you.."

I couldn't stop the tears. I felt pain all over my body.

"Y-you made me love you unconditionally. Yet in the end you ruined me, s-so bad." Beomgyu hugged me he was crying, I didn't even push him away because I couldn't.

"I loved you so much that I was willing to be eaten up by my insecurities. I f-felt that I wasn't e-enough, I felt like I was ugly, I thought that maybe my body wasn't sexy, I even thought that you might like Yeji unnie! I thought that you liked her! I was comparing myself to her. I... I was comparing and being jealous of the only person that was real to me."

"How... how can you stope them? I feel so fucking insecure!" I fell on the floor crying my heart out, Beomgyu was also on the floor with me crying and hugging me.

"Do you even know what I told myself when you asked for another chance? I told myself that I was just probably hallucinating, you wouldn't even do that because you loved me so much. I lied for myself. I lied because I wanted to be with you. I lied because I couldn't even try to not be with you."

I cried and cried. I stood up and was about to leave when he spoke up.

"Do you want to hear my side of our story?" I felt like someone punched my heart when he said 'our story'.

I hope he knows how many lies I fed myself just because I wanted to continue 'our' story.

"T-take that explanation to yourself." I said not even looking back he grabbed my wrist and made me look into him.

"Fucking let go! What's your explanation going to fucking do!? Can it take all those years that I spend trying to find my confidence back!? All those years I was crying all because I thought I wasn't good enough for you!? When in reality you! You weren't the one good enough for me! You ruined me! Do you get it? Now, fucking. Leave. Me. Alone!"

Ryujin stormed out of the room they we're in. It felt suffocating, she didn't want to be near him because that's when she realizes that his presence still affects her. She's still so insecure especially when she's with him.

"Jin...? You good?" a soft voice called out to her, she doesn't even need to turn back to know who it is. She knows that voice.

"Yeji unnie..." she said and came running to her, she didn't cry all she did was hug her.

"I feel so suffocated." she said as Yeji was patting her back.  She knew Ryujin didn't deserve any of it.

"You did good Jin... let's go." Yeji said as they climed up the stairs. She decided to let Ryujin sleep beside her, her best friend needed her.

"Ryeongchae? Hey.. did you talk to Taehyun already?" Chaeryeong shook her head, she didn't want to talk to him. Well Taehyun also didn't want to talk.

"How about you oppa?" Chaeryeong asked Soobin, he just shooked his head. Him and Lia didn't have to talk, they're fine now that's what matters.

But he sure wants to know something, if Lia wants to go back to being a couple. Because for him, he doesn't know if he wants it back. Something is telling him that he can't love Lia like how he loved her back then.

Something changed about him, his not sure what it is.

"Hey Soobin oppa have you heard? The next challenges we're going to leave this place and then have a solo episode with just our ex! I can't believe it!" Chaeryeong said exclaiming.

"How did you find out?" Chaeryeong giggled, "I heard them hehe."

"I guess it's not bad? Especially if you want to get back with your ex. Do you want to get back with Taehyun?" Soobin looked straight in Chaeryeong's eyes.

Chaeryeong didn't know what to say, she doesn't know the answer to that question does she want him back?

"Good evening couples! I have an announcement! Pack your bags and get into your specific car and get ready to have a solo episode with your ex. You'll get more into the back stories of each other so enjoy!"

"See told ya." Chaeryeong giggled and pulled Soobin up so that they can go back to their room.

"I'll miss you oppa, enjoy!" she said smiling. "Ryeongchae you do know that we still have to pack right?"

Chaeryeong laughed and walked with him.

Author's note
Hi! The couples will have each solo chapters so I'd like to ask you guys the order you want to see the couples in. Each chapter will show some memories of their relationship and stuffs. Please do comment which one you'd like to go first since I'm having a hard time T_T. And also thanks for supporting me, enjoy your day!