One Last Smile

Entry #20

Entry #20

January 1, 2023

A dawn full of cuervos, a state of ecstasy, and a love that lasts, these descriptions made up my January 1 highlight. Niyaya ako ni Kyan, or should I say that he asked me to come to their house so he could finally introduce me to his family. I met his family after convincing mine. I was welcomed. I was accepted and loved by his blood. It made me elated like I also belonged with his family.

Today, he never failed to let me feel that I was cherished. I received his princess treatment the moment he fetched me from my parents' house. There was a bouquet of blue tulips waiting for me in the passenger seat. Kyan mentioned that blue tulips are for someone who inspires you, who is unlike anyone you've ever known. My heart melted at his thought of me. Then, when we arrived, I was greeted by his parents and his siblings. Praises and welcome greetings surrounded me, as well as hugs and kisses on the cheeks.

I realized that my boyfriend grew up in such a loving household, surrounded by people who have kind hearts. I, too, grew up with a loving mother and a thoughtful brother. I think Kyan might be too perfect for me.

We had our lunch after I hung out with his little sister. I read her books and taught her mathematics while we waited for lunch. Kyan was constantly asking me if I was uncomfortable, hungry, bored, or sleepy. He even whispered that he wanted to be babied already, but we both knew it would be disrespectful toward his parents.

Then, just as we anticipated, I was allowed inside his room. He vowed to his parents that he'd never commit any sexual acts. Of course, they had a talk before I arrived. I have trusted him my whole life so I was never worried. I only slept the whole afternoon. Sometimes, I'd be woken up by him hugging me or whispering such sweet endearments.

Kuya Dj finally acknowledged him.

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"Babe, if you keep on doing that, I won't be able to sleep. You must realize that, right?" I murmured as I tried to move away from him. He was now sitting on his swivel chair, watching me trying to sleep once again. "Babe, did you realize that it's half past six in the evening? Stand up, aalis tayo." My eyes were wide shot open upon seeing my phone screen. He was indeed telling the truth.

We went out to buy some ice cream for the whole family. We figured that I should just have my dinner with them before he'd return me safely back to my mother's arms. Kuya Dj had spammed his messages an hour ago also. I was just giving him a call while Kyan drove.

"What did he say? Did he allow you?" I nodded as I flashed my phone screen in front of him while he was driving, to show that kuya Dj now trusts him. He had that relieved face and I couldn't help but chuckle lightly.

We were walking towards our car right after we chose several tubs of ice cream for our dessert. We didn't find any pastry back in 7/11 so we left after ordering those tubs. I bought some chocolate bars for my brother, just in case he's studying. He loved to eat chocolates while studying, at para na rin hindi niya ako mapagalitan pag-uwi ko.

Just when he was about to open the car door, I stopped walking behind him. And when I saw his back, his treatment towards me today flashed before me. I could feel my heart clenching. It wasn't bitter pain, but rather a sweet one. "Babe, are you okay? Anong masakit?" He clutched the plastic in his hands as he shoved them into the back seat. He was like Flash, nasa harapan ko na ulit, tinitignan kung may problema ba sa akin.

"Kyan, I love you...so much." Pag-iyak ko sa kaniya. I was like a child, expressing my love which was so heavy and overwhelming. Humihikbi na nga ako and my shoulders were trembling. My body was repulsed only because I was so in love with the man in front of me. My knees couldn't help but be weakened at the mere sight of him.

He looked perplexed and he couldn't stop himself from smiling. "Ako dapat ang babanggit niyan eh. Why are you crying? May nasabi ba akong mali? Tell me, love..." I lightly punched his biceps as I stopped myself from crying even more. "Ikaw kasi. Pa fall masyado." I laughed as his worried expression turned into an amused one. He breathed out his anxiety before he wrapped his arms around me. Hinatid niya ako pauwi. Iyak lamang nang iyak ako sa kotse habang nagmamaneho siya, pinipigilang huminto sa gitna ng daan para kamustahin ako.

Kyan had just left when I unlocked the door and as soon as I got home, I saw my brother with his arms crossed on his chest, glaring at me. Yet, his eyes softened as he made his way towards me, hands gently rubbing my cheeks and my swollen eyes. "Ba't ka naiyak? Hoy." Kuya Dj held my shoulders, and looked at me up and down. I glared at him as I wiped my tears away. "Did he hurt you? Sabihin mo." I laughed at him as I shook my head. He led me towards the couch as I spoke.

"Wala, ang oa mo kuya. Na realize ko na mahal niya talaga ako kaya umiyak ako." He held his breath and bit his bottom lip to stop himself from cursing. His hands were on his waists kaya mas lalo lang akong yumuko. Hinaharangan pa rin niya ako kaya tinulak ko siya pagilid. "And I thought it was that serious. Ganiyan na ba ang mga kabataan ngayon? Is this love?" His response and his criticism only made me glare at him again. He spoke as if he was an old man with so much experience and wisdom. Does he have any? I sighed before I hugged him. Then, I handed out the chocolate bars I bought a while ago. Kuya seemed happy because of it kaya I took the chance to walk towards the staircase.

He had a short moving exam the day after so he quickly went back to his room to sleep. I was left alone and I began to finish my day. I placed the small bouquet of three red tulips. There was a note card that said "You are the love of my life, my Dezryl Gaelle. Ily!" I sighed dreamily as my mind drifted to my thoughts of my own lover. My life was getting sweeter day by day.

Can I say that he makes me so happy I could call him my felicity?

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